jocund ad infinitum

2011-03-30T17:54:00.002+08:00

haven blogged for about four months. hmm...life hasnt been very smooth sailing for me, but i should not grumble. #praysforjapan.

quitted my job. still in the midst of finding a new job. sent out a few resumes but i have no idea when will this waiting game end--> (only shortlisted candidates will be notified). the agony of waiting for a response that might never come is really drowning me. my emotional condition is at its worst. i feel angsty and frustrated every single day. i can't hide my emotions and i dun even feel like hiding it; i show a black face over the slightest thing even though i know it'll hurt the other party. dad and mum, i'm sorry for throwing tantrums at you. sorry.

music can no longer calm me down like it used to. i want to cry. i want someone to ask me how am I. i want someone to accompany me for a walk by the beach and talk to me. but yet i dont want to show anyone this ugly and vulnerable side of me. *ET's ego refuses to give in to her emotional needs.* recently i always have this feeling of shutting the world out, i dont want to listen to anything/anyone besides my music. i dont feel like communicating my thoughts to anybody too. 我不想麻烦别人。

i've always thought that i'ld feel liberated and happy once i've quitted my job. but it seems otherwise. i didnt expect the feeling of being unemployed to be this bad. I hope everything will be alright after I find a job.

where has my optimism gone to? 你快回来啊！！！

2010-12-12T16:49:00.002+08:00

今天突然心血来潮想写一篇日记。

不知道你们会不会偶尔想一想自己是个怎么样的人。我会。
不知道该赖我属的星座（天蝎座），或是我天生就是这个性：敢爱敢恨，敢作敢当。或许就因为这样，往往会为了一时的执著，而做了让自己后悔的决定。当年的一气弄事，从我身边夺走了一段珍贵的友谊。那遗憾造成的空缺，我想无论时间过了多久，那空却也无法被填补，那伤口也无法完全愈合的。看见他们聚会的照片，心里不禁隐隐作痛，幻想自己原本也应该占据照片里的某一个角落，但照片里似乎已经再也容不下我的存在了。纸上谈兵并不是我的作风。时过境迁，我也何尝没有为了这一份友谊付出我最后的努力。或许我踏出那一步时已经太晚了，所有的一切要回头都太难了。也许有一天，当我不再对你们的生活近况感兴趣；不再想知道你们都过得好不好；不再怀念我们过去那一段晶莹的岁月的时候，那或许意味着。。我真的把你们放下了，释怀了。我祝福你们。

人生就是如此，拥有一些残缺的回忆，才会使人生显得更精彩。没有单调的黑色与白色，又怎会使其他的颜色显得鲜艳动人呢？

2010-10-18T16:05:00.002+08:00

just read my friend's blog,she a teacher. then it dawned on me that i am lucky to have not gotten into NIE....because if i did, it would be the start of a crying journey for the rest of my teaching career. personally, i am the sort who gets emotionally attached easily,super easily. i can cry over song lyrics/tune,commercials,short videos,movies and of course drama series. i even get withdrawal symptoms when i finished watching some dramas. heart felt so lost and empty. )): perhaps my tear glands are overly active,but i have to clarify that i am not the emo sort of person,i just get moved easily. i was just imagining, if i became a teacher,every year when my students graduate, i would definitely cry my eyes out,just like i did when i graduated from secondary. thinking back, its strange that i only cried when i graduated from secondary school...but not primary school and jc. maybe i was too young to feel the sadness when i was 12 and was too numbed by jc hell-like curriculum and sucky teachers to feel any sense of belonging to jc when i was 18.

i've always loved and adored small kids. but on second thoughts, seeing and interacting with young kids once in awhile maybe a joy but having to face them everyday may be a different story altogether. what if i grew to find them a hassle as the days goes by? if that is so, what will happen when i have kids in the future? will i have that kind of patience to nuture them?

life sucks when you have so many doubts about it and when you have a lazy piece of shit as your colleague.sometimes i really want to scream in her face and ask her to stop acting dumb and to pick up the bloody calls in office!!! O:<

2010-10-18T11:16:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging for a long time. life hasn't been very exciting.

this morning my mum told me to keep an eye on my 3 elder siblings while she and dad goes to m'sia for the next few days:

1.to make sure that my sister dont stay out till late
2.to monitor my 2 brothers and make sure they don't play computer games till late in the night coz they need to work the next morning.

my response to her was "please don't ask the youngest child in the family to keep an eye and look after the other 3 older ones at home hor...." and she gave me the -___- look..LOL..

speaking of which, i really think i'm the one that my parents worry about the least.not that they care lesser, but i seem to be taking care of myself better than my siblings.

though i earn much lesser than my brothers, but they always make my mum worry.
for big bro,she'll always fret over his relationship problems.
for 2nd bro,she'll always fret over his night shifts n long working hours taking a toil on his health.
for sis,she'll fret over her job hunt and relationship problems.

俗话说：“养儿一百岁，长忧九十九。”真的应验在我妈妈身上。世上只有妈妈好~~！！((:

for me,my relationship has never been a cause of worry for my mum coz she has never seen me quarrelling with ben before,neither did i.haha. for my studies,hmm...am lucky to say that i have been scoring distinctions and just a few marks short of high distinctions for past few modules. and even though i work and study, i take good care of my health and i'm am a healthy sleeper. i seldom stay up late and will always plop onto my bed once i feel tired. i make an effort to exercise regularly and eat proper meals.

i seemed to have forgotten what else i wanna blog about. never mind,next time then.((:

2010-06-23T10:12:00.003+08:00

how do you know if you are growing up/old?

check for the following signs:

1.Money woes everday.

2.Deadlines to meet every other day.

3.Big events coming up every month,thus lots of planning and etc.

4.You keep reminiscing about the past.

5.Social circle shrinks as you and your friends get busier and busier,thus no time to meet up.

6.You find it harder and harder to make new friends and maintain new friendship as your past experiences tells you to choose your friends wisely.

7.You realise the importance of spending time with your family.

8.Grumbling becomes part of everyday life.

9."Pon-tang" slowly disappears from your dictionary coz you can't possibly pon work,unlike lessons in school.

10.See more and more candles on your birthday cake.

with that,signing off as a growing adolescent. )):

2010-04-21T12:09:00.002+08:00

yoo hoo!!!

just came across some really funny comments in yahoo news forum.

it's some feedbacks on the new changes in bus fares.

someone posted this:

"What nonsense is this. The bus companies are always well protected. When they did not meet schedule they were fined $100. This is less than an executive lunch. When an individual commits a traffic offence he is fined more than that. People keep quiet but they are not stupid. Now, what is this trying to win votes with 2.5%. This on the max fare of say $1.60 is 4 cents. Wow,even beggars throw away 5 cent coins."

Couldnt stand the last part in italic. what's with Singaporeans and their sacarsm nowadays. but i gotta admit it got me laughing quite a bit. lots more of such sacarsm in the rest of the threads. hahaha.

then it got me thinking. are singaporeans just too unappreciative or are they stating the facts. seriously i agree with some of their views like changes only come about during specific periods. you know what i'm referring to, and whether the changes really benefit us in the long run. does it benefit singapores of all income groups? moreover, with commoners already pointing out the fundamental issues to solve (increase bus frequency,reduce waiting time and peak hour squeeze, and bus fare by a higher percentage coz 2.5% is really negligible -___-), why are they just skirting around the main issues and not acting on it?

does your comments on forums even get noticed? perhaps only by people like me. since when do you see the authorities retracting their policies and adjustments? they are only informing us about it, we can discuss for all we want, but discussion is not equivalent to opinions/suggestions that will be considered at the end of the day.

then again, maybe we are just taught to always expect more and more and more.

mood:thoughtful

2010-04-19T10:33:00.003+08:00

我的男友

常言道：“爱一个人不需要任何理由，爱一个人也可以有上千万个理由。”

就让我来说说看我爱我男友的理由。。。

他，会在我说我走到累的时候，背我。就算他自己也累了，他还是会背我。

他，会贴心的帮我按摩肩膀，也会细心的帮我吹干我的长发，因为他知道我懒惰自己吹。

他，每天早晨都会传good morning简讯给我，然我开心地迎接每一天。

他，每晚都会传goodnight简讯给我，替我的每一天画上个甜蜜的句点。

他，知道我喜欢听赞美/鼓励的话，就会常常为了芝麻绿豆的小事夸我，哄我开心。

他，就算薪水还没来，也会带我去吃我喜欢吃的，卖给我我超级喜欢的玩具。

他，喜欢做他招牌的章鱼嘟嘟嘴，因为他知道我觉得很可爱。

他，会在适当的时候督促我，却也同时告诉我他不是在骂我，因为他知道我最怕他凶我。

他，自己并非对打麻将很感兴趣，却会常常陪我和朋友一起打牌。

他，从来都不曾对我发脾气。

他，每天都让我觉得我站在他世界的正中央，就像他世界里的小太阳，独一无二。

在照亮他的世界时，也同时带给他欢乐与欢笑声。
而我这颗小太阳，从他的世界里得到的爱却是有过之而无不及的。
让我觉得我是如此的平凡，却又如此的幸运，所以我要谢谢他，在我生命中的每一天。<3

dedicate this special post to my special boy, i love you. ((:

2010-03-25T12:42:00.008+08:00

how do you feel everytime you couldnt get in touch with your close ones?
everytime my parents/siblings or boyfriend doesn't pick up my call, especially when it's getting late at night,i get very paranoid. all sorts of negative things start popping up in my mind...but fortunately,my calls were always returned. :))

how much do i know about myself?

身为典型的天蝎座，我不喜欢人家过于依赖我。你越是想粘着我，我就越想离你远远的。
我需要很多的个人空间，想要知道你在想什么，却又不是很愿意让你看透我整个人，整个心。
独立自主的我，不介意一个人出去逛逛，单独行事，独来独往，对本来就不喜欢依赖别人的我来说，就像是难得的假期，让自己静下来。讲义气的我，决不能容忍朋友被欺负，肯定会为我的好友站出来说话，力挺到底。但要我为你赴汤蹈火，两肋插刀，也不是一件简单的事。眼光锐利的天蝎座，在选择朋友时决不草草了事。若第一眼就看你不顺眼，就很难改变对你的看法。对许多人而言，这种先入为主的观念或许会让人觉得不舒服或者觉得“谁稀罕做你的朋友呢。。”，但对我而言，这就像一种与生俱来的本领，避免交错损友或信错人。或许是我天生缺乏安全感，要我完全的信任你很难，不过一旦信任你，就会对你掏心掏肺。有一位天歇座的好友曾经提到天歇座的人疑心病特别重，总是在猜疑着别人的一举一动背后是不是都有目的，整天弄得自己提心吊胆，疑神疑鬼。开朗随兴的天歇座，很容易喜欢上别人，但只要一开始一段恋情，就会全心投入。可以说我是个吝于夸奖的人，一是怕被看作爱奉承，拍马屁的人。二是不善于表达对于别人的敬仰。三是经常觉得自己比别人强，觉得别人的成就和自己的一样，不是一件甚大的事，而是理所当然的。

okie,that's about all for now that i can manage to think off. shall update again when i discover more about myself. ciaos~ ((:

2010-02-04T14:29:00.002+08:00

power packed January zapped all my time and energy!! opening of Resorts World kept me busy for the past 2 weeks. Hundreds of phone call flooding in everyday, with desperate tour guides shouting at me over the phone all because they wanted to get a seat for the familiarisation tour. Had to quarrel with these unreasonable,irritable and troublesome guides daily. congrats to them for successfully driving my blood pressure up by quite a bit...bet my blood pressure was 160/100 throughout that week.HAHAHA!! I HATE THEM!!!! but well, i ain't such a pushover afterall, since i managed to survive through the weeks. what's more was that i was in the midst of preparing for my human movement module exams. KAO!!! what a week. anyway, fact is that i am a admin staff...not service line so i cant find any reason why i should take all their bullshit and not shout back at them.hahaha. and i've got to take my hats off to my "PRO" chairman..so helpful of her to help me do up the list...and all i got after that was ERRORS ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!! missing names for all the different dates, arbo is this guy booked this date, but in her list the name is on another date...i'm not trying to be harsh or ungrateful here but she is really 越帮越忙...i would have received less scoldings and shoutings if she had let me do the name list on my own..and she thinks her computer/excel skills damn good...wanna take the chance to show off her skills then end up giving me more trouble and work to do..ARGH!!!! >:[

enough talk about the bad start to a brand new year. let's do some recollection of some fond childhood memories. hahaha. my life has been a rather eventful one(though not as dramatic as some others), but maybe can consider writing a book/movie script based on it. probably a comedy. first of all, let talk about my greatest love, my family. having to feed 4 kids in the 80's was surely not an easy task. hence, i really admire my parents for all their hard work and love for us. the scene where mummy held my hands on my first day to school will always be etched in my heart. that pair of hands..so big and warm. vaguely remembered that will some kids were crying and tugging onto their mother's clothes refusing to step into the school coz they are afraid etc; but i was hopping happily and getting all excited about meeting new friends!!! :D i think i did turned back to look at mummy before i went in. hahaha. then after school, i would sit by the long flight of stairs to wait for mummy to come and pick me up. as usual, i would buy a packet of i-forgot-what-the-kueh is called from this old granny outside the school,everyday without fail. something like yam cake with red sauce. how i miss the taste of it!! and it only cost about 50cents. <3 mum would bring me back home and we would tickle each other along the corridor. awww...so sweet!!! :D

i used to ask many of my friends how was their childhood like, their answers were either "like that lor, nothing much" or they would just do away with the topic with a few sentences, maybe mention abit about their tuition and a bit here and there. 相比之下，我的童年似乎比他们的更多姿多彩，有数之不尽的美好回忆。maybe because i have more siblings? hahaha. anyway when i was young, dad was like a lion to me. he is always so stern and strict, like the king of the jungle. all my friends didnt dare to talk in his presence. his shoutings are like thunder roar. 他说一，我不敢说二。no bargaining and no playing a fool. everytime my siblings and I knew we got into trouble and we're gonna get caned when daddy comes home, we would wear 3 to 4 layers of pyjamas to prepare for the caning session and in my case, i would pretend to be asleep at 7 or 8pm. sometimes if i'm lucky, i would get away with it. if not, daddy would wake me up and feed me kuey teow. ): it's quite funny to share the similar memories with my siblings, where we remembered that our classmates would laugh at us for the cane marks the next day we went to school. and sometimes the cane marks looked not only like kuey teow but also like mi hoon kuey(when dad cant find his cane which mum had threw away and uses his 不求人）!!! :(((( ever remembered us hiding behind mum when dad was caning us for our mistakes and mum was like the mother hen in 老鹰捉小鸡,protecting us and telling dad that she was the one carrying us for 10months and giving birth to us and asking dad to stop caning us. hahahaha. ok, daddy has a softer side too. that silly man would give us medicated oil or some balm for us to rub on our mi hoon kuey after caning us. hahaa..and of course daddy was super cool to find time and bring us out for cycling trips every weekend. be it cycling at bedok reservoir or east coast park. that's the happiest moments for kids.that's what childhood should be like in default. and sometimes mum would bring us to swim too. kids just love to go out, even if it's just in the neighbourhood, because anything beyond the door of the house is an adventure. <3

of course my siblings played a huge role in my growing up. all those lame fights and quarrels and the classic shout-until-neighbours-want-to-call-police all because a huge moth flew into the house. hahaha!!!! and playing block catching,zero-point,ice-and-water and five stones. hahaha.always had to make a choice whether to follow my brothers and play catching or stay with my sis and play boring barbie dolls and five stones. woes of being the youngest at home. somehow my favourite would always be to play wrestling with my siblings on our parents bed. jump and jump and see who's the last survivor on the bed. hehehehe. getting nostalgic ley...((: will always remember how 2nd bro always getting into trouble because of his 牛脾气，因为他属牛！everytime the bathroom hook is spoilt, he's sure to be involved/is the culprit. i dont understand why he always spoils the toilet hook. hahahaha!!!

after saying so much about my family, it's time to talk about myself. what makes me eunice ting? hahahahaha!!! let's see...

ever tried dropping into your school's eco-garden pond? i did. my classmate and i always loved to sneak into the school's eco-garden to catch tadpoles in the pond. there was once where i was so curious and eager to know what's inside such a small tadpole, i squeezed it and "splat", a bit of red and nothing else. i didnt see the intestines that i was expecting to see in the tadpole. hahaha. i know that's a very cruel thing to do but please pardon me, i was just primary 1 then. then another time, my friend went to checked if the prefects were coming to lock the eco-garden after recess and i was kneeling by the side of the pond watching the tadpoles,totally engrossed. when she saw the prefects coming, she hurried back to inform me and gave me such a big and unexpected tap on my back that "PLOP" i went into the pond. soaking wet, i went back to the classroom and my teacher helped to give my mum a call. hahahaha!!! the rest of my primary school days were spent terrorizing my fellow group mates, as i was the group leader in my group. and having chicken rice+fishball noodles+fishballs for recess!! ok i know i do eat a bit more than normal kids of my age, but all that food didnt seem to go anywhere to help in my body development LEH!!! mum always say i "jiat liao bi"..sobs...i miss my primary school canteen food LA!!! ))): there was once where me and my 2 friends were lazy to walk to the front gate and decided to get out of school by climbing the back gate. everything went smoothly until one of my friend slipped and the sharp sharp thing went through her shirt and left her dangling on the gate for quite awhile. luckily some kind hearted aunties and uncles helped us save her. :D

wah this entry getting a bit long and draggy.bear with me ar people...hardly get the chance and mood to blog.let me nag a bit more...(((:

seriously i swear i don't remember much about studying or even preparing for PSLE. my brother told me the same thing too!!! guess our childhoods were too packed with exciting adventures that we didnt have time to study.hahaha!!! then lucky us went on to secondary school with ease. :D

while everyone thought that the fair-skinned girl who always keeps herself to her mp3 is autistic, she gradually opened herself up after joining volleyball. loads of happy and painful memories here. shall fast forward. basically secondary school was filled with lots of gate-climbing,morning exercises,math remedials and detention. as you know,majority of it was due to late-coming.hahahaha.listening to 933FM during chinese lesson was a joke. having breakfast with classmates outside school while waiting for first lesson to end was another.hahahaha. sounds like i'm very rebellious right? nope, i'm not. i only watch my friend catfight with another girl and giggle as i watch, i never get myself involved in these kind of things. at most i only vandalism my table,from white become black table...hahaha..got to admit chung cheng times were the best. it's a really good school. :D 今日我以中正为荣，明日中正以我为荣。love this motto. love the chinese temple-like buildings, love the white+red pe shirt with blue pants(ugly i know,but i like :P) ,love the volleyball courts, love the plugs and lockers beside our tables ,love the auditorium, love the basements and ghost stories, love my teachers and friends there! i am super proud to be a chung cheng-er!!! :D can never forget that we have to recite the national pledge in madarin every tuesday and thursday. typical cheena practice. have to wear that red red tie every monday. and played hai-dai ar hai-dai so loud during assembly that the discipline master was disrupted when he was making an announcement, but couldnt find the culprit.hahahaha. and did i mention i love the auditorium because it's 2 storeys high?!!! love to be in the 2nd storey during assembly. last but not least, how can i forget about our legendary chung cheng lake and all the beautiful trees surrounding it? love it to bits!!! :D though we always have to wait very long for our volleyball to float back to shore after dropping into the lake. :D

here and there, once in a while someone will kana bird shit halfway through morning assembly on parade square. hahaha. and talking about bird shit. i also kana before some years back when my family and i went back to penang. early morning 一下车就kana bird shit on MY HEAD!!!! and i've lost count of how many times i've stepped on dog shit while on my way to school. early morning skies still dark and i had to run shortcut across a big patch of grass to catch the bus, then always kana dog shit. WAH KAO!!! >:[ but i'm lucky coz my dear friends didnt shunned me becoz of the smell. hahahaa..

something even more disgusting and unbelievable....ever tried stepping on cockroaches with your bare foot? I DID!!! YUCKS!!!! of course is unintentional one la. got up early coz of exams, then walked across my room to dad's bathroom in the dark. on my way back, stepped on something! a bit moist,first thought was "不会那么准踩到蟑螂吧。。。" thought to myself...maybe it's a moth..then i slowly reached for the lights...TO MY HORROR IT"S A FILTHY COCKROACH!!!! and for the whole day i kept having the sticky feeling on the sole of my foot even though i already scrubbed my foot for a zillion times. that was a real nightmare. :S

anyway to sum it up..i think my life is rather amusing and interesting. a life that i would love to re-live again if i could. to see the good in life and appreciate what you already have is a gift that no one else can give. i thank myself for choosing to be happy and sanguine. <3

2010-01-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

ever tried triple date? hahaha. i did. had triple date with my big bro, his gf, my sis and her bf. that's something good about having so many siblings. hahaha. it was quite funny actually. my sis and her bg went to orchard to catch a movie, while ben and i went to orchard to shop. then while chilling at starbucks in wisma and waiting for sis and bf to go for dinner tgth, i decided to drop big bro a text that goes,"sea hum tonight?" hahahaha. the "sea hum" became the joke of the night. coincidentally, big bro and gf were on their way to town too!!! :D so in the end we decided to go to this french restaurant that sells authentic french cuisine at cheaper price. here comes the drama of the night!!!! fuming at the thought of it!!! >:{

firstly, we waited half an hr for our seats, which we thought was reasonable coz it was a saturday night and there were lots of ppl there. soon after we sat down, the few caucasians that came shortly after us(about 10 mins) got their seats!!! coincidence you might say...but carry on reading...

as soon as we sat down, we placed orders for our food as we were already famished like siao!!! then we waited and waited until the flowers withered...after about 45 mins of waiting(with intervals of us asking them to check on our orders), we asked the manager to check on our food and she said it was "coming". and we looked around and saw the same few caucasians who came later than us and placed orders later than us, EATING THEIR FOOD HAPPILY!!!! WTH!!! so we decided to call the lady boss and she appeased us by saying that they are "cooking the food now"!!!! so after 1hr15mins of waiting then they finally start to cook our orders???!!!! after serving all the caucasians FIRST!!!! we couldnt believe our ears...for a moment i thought we were back to the colonial times where they regarded caucasians as people of higher status and respect. FINALLY after a total of 1hr30mins of waiting PURELY for our FOOD, we got to feed our poor stomachs which alr shrinked by more than half by then. angrily, we ate our food and when we called for the bill, we decided that we shall not pay for the near to $20 buck as service charge, since no service was provided for in the first place. it was such a horrible dining experience, nothing that i would expect to get in Singapore where everyone is talking about service excellence and "GEMS"--> go the extra mile for service!! what a joke!

thus, we tried to reason with the manager and lady boss that the service charge was not justifiable AT ALL!!! and for your information, not a word of apology was offered from the beginning to the end. all they did was to defend themselves by saying RIDICULOUS things like "the order was given to our kitchen and they were preparing the food". come on, even if they need to slaughter the animal on the spot to prepare for the dishes, it wouldnt even take 1.5hrs to do that, PLEASE!!! give a better excuse!! and I CANT BELIEVE THE LADY BOSS SAID "GOOD SERVICE, POOR SERVICE ALSO SERVICE, sorry you would have to pay for the service charge" i cant believe that anyone running a business with BRAIN could say that to their customer!! so what, they think we are a group of youngsters who are trying to sponge on them by refusing to pay the service charge? and worst of all, the tone and attitude of the manager and lady boss was horrific throughout the whole time. so what if the majority of their customers are caucasians? we would gladly pay for the service charge if they offered an apology SINCERELY. they dont even have the basic courtesy to do that. i'm utterly disappointed. Nah, disgusted would be a better word to describe how i felt. i think it's just plain stupid of them to do that to their local customers, having to lost potentially a few hundreds/thousands customers(if we were to recommend to our friends,but i SWEAR that it would never happen!!!) over that $20.

DEAR FRIENDS/PASSER-BYS-who-happen-to-chance-upon-my-blog/FELLOW SINGAPOREANS,
PLEASE DO NOT PATRONISE OR SHOULD I SAY WE OUGHT TO BOYCOTT this stall. IT's called The French Stall, located at 544 Serangoon Road 218166. The bitchy+arrogant lady's boss name is Mdm Yong. What a suck up to foreigners and disgrace to locals.

Check out this other review which I found on http://yum.sg/?component=view_restaurant&restaurant_id=1691 :

"I just spent two hours at this restaurant waiting for our meal and then received a raw steak. My wifes meal was actually okay, but my new(20 min. later)steak was once again very undercooked. All this went on without a single explanation or care at all from the waitstaff or owner for that matter. This apparently was business as usual at the French Stall. We got our bill which had the wrong and more expensive meals on it and I went to speak with the owner. I inquired about a possible discount which to him was the most ridiculous thing he had ever heard. He proceeded to tell me that he had no interest in offering any discount on our bill after our experience because he "was already certain we would not return so why would I want to lose twice and give you a discount on this bill." HOLY CRAP! I have to give him credit for his complete lack of caring right to his customers face. Much of the waitstaff was pretty rude all night but this all starts from the top or owner, who in this case was the most arrogant disinterested owner I've ever encountered.We can only laugh at how ridiculous this experience was and never go back, but hopefully keep anyone else from wasting their money here, as it wasn't that funny!This place is awful, but it's the owner's uncompromising arrogance that should keep anyone from spending a single cent here. OH, and the terrible service and overpriced ehhh food."

Hohoho. See it's not just me/us who received this kind of "service".
Be careful not to be their next victim!!!

Still got lots to say but i'm knocking off already!!! shall update again tml/soon. :D

2010-01-11T17:13:00.002+08:00

talk about bridging the gap. can someone tell me how to fill up 5 yrs worth of gap? and with what? htht? our common activities? i think i know the answer....just move on...
不知道是不是自己老了，最近总无缘无故地觉得伤感。虽然已懂得如何点算自己的快乐多于悲哀，豁达地面对挫折，但总觉得还是少了些什么，自己也说不上来。有时候听到一首歌，或嗅吸到那熟悉的味道（香水，洗发精等），脑里一阵急流，把我冲回到从前的那一天。除了我们伟大的大脑，音乐和味道也是封锁记忆的开关，一触即发。不知道是不是只有我才那么觉得。。哈哈！！放不下的悔恨将成为我们的绊脚石。释怀的包袱将蜕变成带我们展翅高飞的翅膀。我不想再被绊倒了！！！我要飞！！！最近的内心独白越来越频繁，自己都觉得有一点害怕，但却找不到根本。我到底是怎么了？？！！或许是我自己给自己太多压力了吧。。。

on a brighter note, i had a FUNtastic weekend well spent with my family. daddy,mummy,me,ben,sis,bro and gf went to pulau ubin tgth!!! it's the first time for me and mummy!!! X: yes i'm mountain tortoise...hahaha!!! had dim sum at changi village before taking bumboat to ubin. :D rented bicycles and the 7 of us cycled to the marina resort for a break. went along the coastline and saw lots of hermit crabs, mini-mussels (mini as in really small, like a grain of rice) and brave daddy caught a small crab (like a bit smaller than my palm) but he was injured by the crab's pincer. ): but we 大发慈悲 let the crabs go free in the end...): they were really nice to look at!!! (: it was so cute when the 7 of us were exploring the coastline and being fascinated by those small little creatures. <3 <3 <3 not to forget seeing mum and dad cycling so hard and sweating so much. bet they couldnt even remember when was the last time they exercised!!! Heeeheee...love how we look out for one another when we were cycling...so heartwarming!! :D then we went fishing. my virgin fishing experience!! big bro's excitement were were super shortlived. it only took him less than 3 mins from the time he threw the bait into the pond to him catching the golden snapper. hahaha!!! i was second in place. took abit more than 10 mins to catch a golden travelli. then it was dad's turn to hooked up the biggest catch of the day, mr red snapper. lastly sis ended our fishing adventure with a milk fish. hehe. poor ben,mum and yvonne 吃鸡蛋！！hahaha!! packed the fishes and mum and dad left home first to prepare the fish before going to work, while the 5 of us continued on our pulau ubin adventure. cycled round to chek jawa. hate the inclined slopes to the max!!! sooo tiring!! ): but it was rewarding when we got to the top of the viewing tower and had our mini-picnic there. bet those bangalas and ang-mohs were super jealous of us!! :D then went onto the trails and saw my favourite mud-skipper!! debated if it was edible and whether it would taste like fish or mud. hehehe. left the island at close to 6pm. had red dates jelly with longans at changi village(sis's recommendation). not bad,at least something different from the normal desserts outside. then feasted on the cockles. it was super sinful. i hope i dun get hepatitis B for that. hahaha. the sambal chilli is heaven!!! i started craving for it once i finished my last piece. BOO HOO HOO!!! ))):

secretly feel blessed to have my big bro as my bro.hehe.he is superb i tell you.not only is he smart and handsome(ok maybe not to all, but is charismatic k), he also has the brains(lawyer,duh?),顾家,got foresight etc etc....of all the qualities, i admire him most for his efforts to bond the family and helps the family out. seriously how many guys in our era are like him? i bet there wont be more than a dozen. he never makes dad or mum pay during our family outings and he takes care of all our insurance policies, making sure that we get the best protection. despite all these, he can be quite a joker at times. secretly peeping at my sis and bro's sms out of k-po'ness and gossiping about my siblings together with me. this silly bro of mine always likes to confide in me whenever he's feeling troubled. must be the affinity between the oldest and youngest child. hahaha. if i am granted a choice, i would not hesitate even for a split second to choose him as my big bro in my next lifetime!!! hehehe!!! <3

signing off feeling bloated with happiness~~~ ((: <3

2009-12-30T14:11:00.004+08:00

second last day of year 2009...let's rewind and see what i have done for the past 12 months...

1. working in prints till end feb. reward? mastered the art of nice gift wrapping, especially tying ribbons!! :D

2. got a job in moe. temporary admin assistant, or in other words, sai gang warrior!!! :F finally gained some proper admin work experience. minus the brainless photocopying and loooooong train rides. i think i will never go to the west side for quite a while unless something REALLY URGENT calls for it. :F not forgetting, getting to know some nice colleagues who helped me pulled through those long working hours. and getting to know my a's result in office. :(

3. got my first permanent job. although the change was quite sudden and there were some rejection syndrome initially, i got to say my adaptation skills pulled me through quite well and TA DAH!!! actually am quite fortunate to hv gotten this job at this point in time...given the economy crisis, i still managed to find a job that pays 'ok-ish', at least reasonable for me. not much staff benefits but no OTs as well. not much colleagues, in fact only 1, but no boss as well!! :D not much leave but not much work/stress. which means as long as i finish my work, my office becomes my internet cafe/self-study room or whatever you wanna call it. a bit busy at times, a bit irritated at times but still bearable. got to admit...slacking took up most of the time. learnt lots of stuffs here, can be personal assistant/secretary already!!! hahahaha. and where else can you find a job that allows you to be late almost everyday??!!! this point alone makes my job good enough for me to want to stay on. good or bad? my verdict is -----> :D

4. started school!!! for a moment i thought i might get to study sports science in ntu after the positive feedback which my interviewer gave before i left the room. but nah, life ain't a bed of roses after all. optimisim doesnt make dreams come true. but at least it gives you the strength to seek for an alternative route. 要相信天无绝人之路！！part-time studying is no joke man. but 3 yrs from now i think i will be damn proud of myself when i receive my degree. i am sure that i can make the best out of these 3 years. gambateh!!! 有人说：“过程不重要，重要的是结果。” 又有人说:"结果不重要，重要的是过程。" 对我而言，过程和结果一样重要。只在乎结果而忽视过程，既错过了学习与成长。只在乎过程而忽视结果的话，既无成功可谈。3 years is all i have to prove my worth. at least for the next 3 years, i will be doing something which is of my interest and i enjoy doing. a major motivation!!! :D

5. towards the end of 2009, i attended so many wedding dinners that i got really sick of it!! :X cousin's wedding in m'sia was simple but yet, a grand affair. i bet it's because of the company(my lovely relatives and cousins). followed by ms wan's wedding dinner. the first time i attended my teacher's wedding. ironic coz we ain't close at all. :X bet she'll be damn heartbroken to see this. i treated that as a chance to meet my long-time-no-see classmates!!! still a bunch of 'modest'ians'. super ironic coz we ain't modest at all!!! still rmb our class slogan was 'guai lan is our style' HAHAHAHAHA!!!! the iconic 'bengs & lians' who hangs around in our 'forever nvr on lights' classroom and palawan/siloso beach for volleyball. lots of fun and laughters <3 then my aunt's daughter's wedding dinner. was supposed to go but was so sick of wedding dinners that i went for make-up lesson instead. ;)

6. tour de hong kong/guangzhou/macau with kakis!! longest trip ever. crossed the customs like 1 million times over the span of 8 days. that was the most draining part for the whole tour. plus my bad bad flu during the trip made things worse. having to hug our bags like we're bringing gold bars out coz there are signs reminding you to take care of your personal belongings EVERYWHERE!!! train stations, customs, hotels, restaurants and even toilets!!! luckily we survived the trip without any "slash and splash". slash stands for pickpockets and splash referring to acid attacks in HK. WOOHOO!!! bravo!!! had memorable clubbing experience in lan kwai fong with kakis, minus the corny scene where a ang moh knelt down while dancing in front of his gf. HAHAHAHAHA!!! love it when the guy who went around grinding and touching girls saw us giving him the disgusted look. he looked so 'caught in the act' that he retreated to another corner immediately. HAHAHAHA!!! kakis save the day again!!! :D and not to forget our fun day at ocean park!! :D when our souls left us when we took the abyss, it kept on rising and rising i though it was bringing me to see my grandmother in heaven. :S coolest dolphin show and 360 degrees roller-coaster plus mine train!!! can still hear my heart going "pip pop pip pop pip pop~~" HAHAHAHA!!! kind of messy here coz jus typing whatever that comes to my mind..(: then my bad crash at go kart in macau..): my biggest 'present' brought back from macau was actually the 2 GIGANTIC ORH CEH (blue-black) from my go kart crash. SOBS!!!! :_( had nice organic dinner as consolation. hahaha. and a bit of casino action in venetian and liboa. though we hum ji only dare to play sic bo, which tortured me and van for close to 4 hrs betting on our hkd$300 = sgd$60 and i agree with van's saying of 不赌就是赢。after that 4 hrs of nerve wrenching guessing and tapping extensively on our intuition, we lost. boo!! was super tired physically and mentally after that. ): did tonnes of shopping and bargaining in guangzhou. lesson learnt : never ask for the price of anything unless you are really keen in buying that item. once you ask, the shop keeper will keep on bargaining until you buy!! personal experience : i asked for the price of a cardigan which in the end i didnt want to buy then the shop keeper just stuffed it into my bag and charged me less than half of what she offered initially. Faints. and if you really dont buy, they will scold you like some crazy woman. service excellence?? hohoho.not a chance. managed some good buys even tough it was winter season and the clothes were really limited. dont expect me to buy long sleeves and winter wear for our sunny singapore right? hahaha. and i am so proud that i stick closely to my shopping list!! thus my not over-spending!!! :D KUDOS TO MYSELF!! :D cut my hair in hk while sj and van dyed and highlighted their's. :D hk hairdresser cut really nicer than s'pore!! :D more trendy. <3 and one hair-dresser said he could tell that we are singaporeans coz he watched jack neo's "小孩不笨" and he said we talked exactly the same way as in the movies!! hahahaha!!! joke of the trip!!

ya da ya da and lots of minute details about things which happened during my trip which i am lazy to elaborate on here. got to comment on how much i love singapore and am proud to be a singaporean!!! after the long trip to 3 different places, i still find home the best place to be in.
i can hang out till past midnight and not worry about being robbed on my way home. no need to hug my bag until my hands ache while i'm out. clean and green streets with toilets and rubbish bins easily accessible. world class transport and infrastructure. idiot proof transport system and maps. hygenic and tasty food. and our powerful/trusted passport that is recognised all over the world. no need to spend hours on making visa before our trip. I AM PROUD TO BE A SINGAPOREAN!! :D okay, let talk a bit about my plans for 2010 before noisy guides come into office to get ready for potluck later in the evening. :F

2010:

1. wish to get good grades and improve, if not maintain standard for every module. :D

2. health and happiness for family and friends.

3. fatty and i to stay strong even after he starts school. <3

4. make some drastic changes to my hair. afro? HAHAHAHA!!!

5. delay the onslaught of 21 years old!! NOOOOOOO~~~~~~ i dont wanna grow old!!! :(
hahahahaha... as if i can~~~

6. 30 mins of me time every single day. greatest challenge.

7. revamp my debilitated office

ok must pretend to be busy before noisy guides come into office. byebye! :D

2009-12-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

after coming back from my trip from m'sia (kuantan and penang), it made me appreciate singapore even more, much much more...although singapore is very very small and has very limited places of interest, but at least we are :

1. geographically safe from nature's assult in terms of natural disasters

2. good governance free from corruption (my cousin were telling us the power of RM$10 whenever m'sian drivers are stopped by traffic police..HAHA!!)

3.we dont hv drivers who read newspaper as they drive.YES!!! READ NEWSPAPER!!! i was ultimate shocked when i saw the LADY with the papers on her steering wheel while she was driving.NOT RED LIGHT SOMEMORE!!!! >:[

4.we dont hv drivers travelling at 160kpm on normal roads. yes normal road!!! not EXPRESSWAY!!! and neither are we starring in tokyo drift..S:

5. super clean environment.let me emphasize agn, SUPER CLEAN!!! for example: the level of cleaniness of our normal shopping mall toilets is comparable to their hotel/airport toilets? and no hawkers by the drains? even though it comes as trade-off with cheaper and maybe some 古早味/tastier food?

6. our roads are smooth!!! not bumpy like as if we're travelling on rocky hills.

that's all for singapore v.s. malaysia for now..haha..

anyway i thought the holiday was supposed to let me recharge myself, but instead it drained me inside out. :[ slept at an avergae of 1am and waking up at an average of 8am everyday? to scan bone mass density, go cousin's wedding and tag along for all the formalities, shopping, packing etc etc PIANGS!!! freaking tired!!!! not to mention the furnace-like temperature!! :[ BUT!! the companion of my cousins and penang chendol were the best rewards!!! woo hoo!!! love my relatives there!!! :D

内心独白：

那一天，在我匆忙的步伐中，我发现走路对我而言竟是一种享受，一种奢侈。
那一双穿梭人群，健步如飞的脚，属于我的。
我没有多余的时间慢下脚步，去细细感受早晨的温暖。
我每日的行程如下：
赶完交通灯，赶巴士，赶完巴士赶地铁。下了地铁又得赶过交通灯。
惟有赶到了办公室才能停下那双操劳过度的脚。

辛苦了一整天，终于到了下班时间，不知从几时开始，我变得非常想家，一放工就想立刻飞回家。那种渴望马上回家的感觉，我好像从来没有过。就算有，也是在外面玩到累毙了才会有向往回家的感觉。是什么原因造成我的‘思家症’，我也不是很清楚。多半是因为大多数的时间不是在办公室就是在学校，剥夺了我的天伦时间。现在周末有时间就只想呆在家里静静的做自己想做的事，和家人一起看电视，或跟朋友打打牌，悠闲的度过周末。

偶尔放工回家后，赖在电视前做couch potato真的很爽。
把该看的lectures,该revise的chapters都抛到九霄云外，享受当下的无忧无虑，做个电视迷，真的很不错。

时间到了，灰姑娘得就寝了。今天的内心独白就分享到这里了。:D

2009-11-12T11:15:00.005+08:00

got a very romantic surprise on my 20th birthday. <3

The night before, Ben got my campus and classroom location from me. I thought he was picking me up after lesson, but nope he didn't in the end. Lesson started at 7pm and I was busy fighting the Zzzz monster. Around 7.30pm, a guy opened the door and peeked in. The first thing hwee ting and I thought was that he looked like a 逃犯，鬼鬼祟祟的. hahaha!! And we thought he was just any other student that couldnt find his classroom in the campus. Lesson continued......and at 8.30pm, the same guy opened the door and looked around for quite awhile. It caught the attention of my tutor, Shawn. He went up to ask if the guy at the door if he needed any help. The guy at the door said he was looking for someone and Shawn helped to read out the name. "Is Eunice here?" my heart stopped. At the door, the delivery guy was holding a bouquet of roses. He looked super 不好意思for interrupting the lesson. There were around 40-50 students in the room. X: I remained frozen at my seat for a while, hesitating whether I should own up to collect the flowers. Then I stood up and walked to the door, face was blushing like mad. The class cheered and Shawn was smiling and said he is so touched that he couldnt continue with lesson. He said,"Who cares about Human Biology??". HAHAHA!! god!! now the whole class knows my name is Eunice!! :F Then ask we were talking about human evolution, like how ideas could get across from ages ago till today through the complex communication structure that humans possess..he used me as an example again. -____-
saying smth like if he were to write a story about the touching scene he just saw, people 2000 years from now could still feel the emotions through his words etc...

For the rest of the lesson, I was trying to recover from the huge surprise I just got.
For that moment, I felt like the female lead in 'My Sassy Girl', receiving flowers during lecture. The only difference was that mine came as a surprise, not a request/demand.

Best boyfriend on planet earth - checked.
Happy family - checked
Lovely Friends <3 - checked
Stable job and income - checked
What more can I expect for my 20th birthday? :D

Thanks all lovelies for all the birthday wishes and treats and gifts!!! :D

2009-10-21T12:46:00.004+08:00

somehow, I feel that I have really grown quite a bit for the past year.
and the catalyst for my rapid metamorphosis? it got to be benjamin loh yi kai.

I've got to admit that he is an influential and inspiring partner to be with. Doing away with all the serious talks and plannings for our future, he is a fun,caring,patient and loving cute boyfriend to hang out with. a rare gem who is always accomodating to my wants and wishes, 不得不承认我真的是捡到宝。必定是我前世积下的阴德。嘻嘻。

another reason could be that the life I am leading now. working full time and studying part life has indeed caused a great change in me. How to plan my time around work,studies,family，friends and myself is never an easy task. Who could say 'No' to fun and enjoyment? I can never do that in the past. But now, as reality and responsibility sinks in, I ani't got a choice. Do I ?

换个角度去看，这未必是件坏事。I am very sure that the current phase of my life would be a life-changing and enriching one. 虽然步伐很仓促，每天都得马不停蹄的向前冲，但我却觉得这样才过得更充实。It has been about a month since school started. I gradually feel that maybe it is not so bad after all to be studying part-time. Although lots of sacrifices have to be made, like less gatherings/dates/meet-ups etc, but I am very sure I can make do with it for the upcoming years. It has been such a long time since I last fell asleep during lessons/lectures and I must say that that is a great achievement. A GREAT LEAP FORWARD!! :D I love the way I stay focused and attentive during lessons and bringing the most of my lectures home. I have never disliked studying, it has always been a matter of which subjects only. Learning is a fun process, but sadly the delivery method has always stole the limelight, or should I say, decides the interest of the students.

Although I am lagging behind by a little now, but the drive within me is still raging on. And I hope this momentum never stops, even after I finish my studies. 我现在才知道原来能够做自己喜欢的东西，才是人生最大的原动力。

内涵内涵，顾名思义性格是由内而散发至外的。

二十多岁的人了，还过着懵懵懂懂的生活，看了叫人惋惜，但却绝对不值得同情。

我就不一样，二十年后的今天，我将会骄傲地对我的朋友，家人，和孩子诉说着我二十年前是如何充实地度过我的每一天，不让青春留白。

2009-10-04T23:48:00.003+08:00

i have been feeling rotten for the past 2 days.
for blewing my perfect weekend away.
i could have finished viewing my lectures/did some read-ups on my own or even start researching on my essay assignment. but i only did research for my assignment for less than 20mins;managed to view only 1 lecture and zero self read-ups.

what's more is i'm having a quiz on coming wednesday. i feel very 旁徨；力不从心 at times...i know very clearly what I have to clear on my to-do list. but i just cant help procrastinating. i fear that i would lag behind in lectures. i dont want to feel scared nor frightened when lecturers approach me during lectures to ask me if i'm alright. i want to regain that confidence and passion in studying. i dont want to return to that self which i had in JC. those days when i only knew how to have fun;cca;listen but dont understand and all those stupid copy-all-you-can during lectures. NOOOOO!!!! i dont want to do that ever again. that's the lousiest way to ever study.

i felt really uncomfortable when i sat in front of the tv and watched the hours passed. from 3 to 4,to 5,to 6...and all the way till 9pm before i started to do something constructive. i know i shld hv started work at 3,but my brain and body just didnt want to cooperate with me.plus the tv shows were really nice.X:

actually i'm secretly happy that the week-day show from 7pm to 10pm are lousy.that gives me a perfect reason to steer clear of the tv.i can easily spend hours on sleeping/games/tv. why cant i do the same for my studies? i know i can. 加油，加油，加油！！！

sometimes i wished he could hear the voice within me and provide the solace i need.

2009-08-26T18:43:00.000+08:00

无聊促使的创作：

1。大便，大便，大了一遍又一遍。

2。雨伞，雨伞，看到下雨我就闪。

3。牙刷，牙刷，看到牙齿我就耍。

我不是中国仔！！！
(I AM NOT CHEENA-POK!!!)
HAHAHA!!

天灰前的那一霎那，
云彩师会在他的画本，
也就是天空，
画出一幅七彩缤纷的佳作。

就好比舞娘穿着绚丽动人的舞衣，
在天空上舞动着。

那幅画，那舞蹈，
每天只上演一次，
一身中或许再也不会看见相同的了。

绝对不要错过生命中的美好。
珍惜眼前人，事，物。

2009-08-10T15:13:00.002+08:00

new job. new environment. new colleagues. and finally new phone!!! :D

it's hard to adapt to a new environment/workplace.
but it's even harder to part with it.
why are humans so fragile when it comes to parting.

离别时最叫人伤感的不是道别时的只字片语,
也不是温柔的拥抱,
而是那渐渐远离我的背影...

lots of memories, lots of thoughts and lots of emotions.
too much for me to handle.
but i'm lucky to have friends and bf to give me hand when i needed them most.
thought a lot, grown a lot.
i might not be thinking like a 20 yrs old nor living like a 20 yrs old.
but that's a choice and a gamble that i had made.

uncertainties becomes predictions/opportunities when you are prepared for it.
likewise,uncertainties becomes stumbling blocks when you are not prepared for it.
how true can it be...only i know it best.

come what may, i'll embrace it with an open mind.
to be able to find peace amongst the turbulence in life gives strength to carry on.
i guess i have found that peace.

2009-05-02T12:51:00.002+08:00

having lived 19yrs and 6mths...i've come to realise that some beliefs and principles which i've held on to so strongly in the past.........they didnt even matter that much anymore........if only i gave in at that point in time, perhaps i could have lived a happier life....or maybe not....anyway it doesnt really matter anymore....

since dont know when, the earth has changed.it began to retaliate and turn on us humans who have done so damage to it. SARS, asian tsunami, countless typhoons/floods/droughts that had taken away so many lives, mad cow diease, avian flu and now the evolutionary swine flu. on top of all these natural disasters, we have an ever increasing number of murder cases, suicide cases, riots and threats of possible nuclear/ non-nuclear wars. putting man-made disaster and natural disaster altogether, how much more can the almighty human speices take before we're completely wiped out? perhaps even before we run out of oil/water, the extinction of certain animal species might disrupt our food-chain and wipe us out. Or maybe we would all perish even before the food chain is destroyed, due to global warming/changing climates. i'm not some born pessimistist, but looking at the rate that the world is changing and the occurrence of disasters..it's hard to deny the myth of D-day drawing near.

with that, i earnestly pray that humans would put an end to all the conflicts and fighting. we are all children of the earth, why should we deny someone else of a chance to live? live life to love and love life to live. that is what that kept us going since ancient time.

2009-03-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

i'm glad to have found the last man in my life. the jouney has just began and i'm glad we held on tight. he's not only my soul-mate, but also my mentor. i've really learnt a lot from him and i really thanked him for being so patient and supportive throughout the past year. i finally see happiness lying in front of me. some quotes to share..(:

"A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous."--Ingrid Bergmen

"In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing."--Mignon McLaughlin

"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction."--Antoine de Saint-Exupery

"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."--Robert Sexton

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile, I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand."--Unknown

"Love is a dream that comes alive when we meet." --Unknown

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."--Sam Keen

"Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love."--Erich Fromm

"True love begins when nothing is looked for in return."--Antoine De Saint-Exupery

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."--Lao Tzu

"Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."--Thomas Fuller

"Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile."--Elizabeth Browning

this post is dedicated to my special boy--benjamin loh yi kai.
i love you.

2009-01-21T19:02:00.003+08:00

once upon a time.........there used to be a happy bunch of girls who enjoyed playing volleyball together. they would rush to the court after lessons on training days..they trained hard and wld nvr leave the court until the sun has set. once upon the time. there came this girl. she nvr really liked and enjoyed the game as much as the others.she wld always make excuses to go for other activities/cca. she liked the people more than the game. she was the weakest. she didnt belong to the team nor the game. she was the source of all the trouble. once upon a time.

the more i see,the more i think, the more i realise we're already in different worlds. i regretted. i insisted. perhaps it all ended when i said we're already leading our own lives and would be best to leave it as it is. i wished to have a team whom i can play with. i wished. but it would never be the same again. i never want to face HER again. i cant stand the thought of having a 'friend' who always compares myself with her. especially when she's nowhere better off. because of her, my hope, my dream will never be realised. people always say, you'll be able to accept whatever flaws your friend has if he/she is a true friend. maybe i never really regarded her as my true friend before. and it's all thanks to her character,the way she likes to compare me with her and boast about herself. i cant accept her for the way she is. maybe i'm too stubborn. but i just cant force a smile and act as per normal with people i dont like. in fact, i hate her. the harder she tries, the more i feel disgusted. because of her existence, things will never change. it time to let go and move on. it's already been 4 years. the time that i've lost will never turn back. neither will the people. the struggle is over. but why do we always have to live with regrets.....

2008-05-28T13:00:00.004+08:00

let me start off this post with a smile. :D

i did a damn brave thing yesterday.coz it had been weighing on my mind for such a long time,and i just couldnt take it anymore!!! i'm convinced that it really takes THAT MUCH courage to admit one's mistake and apologise after that.so....if you ever come across a WORTHY friend,do treasure the friendship,dont just let it slip past you.i'm really glad that i didnt let history repeat itself again in my case,i held on tight,and it paid off. :D :D :D
in essence,i'm a courageous girl !! wahaha. (: (: (:
i've fulfilled one of my 2 resolutions for this year.still weighing whether it's worth it for the other.i need some enlightenment.):

why are my posts always so jumbled up with all my entangled thoughts?!! tips for being a better blogger anyone? haha. anyway i went for the nie interview yesterday.seriously,my waiting time was waaaayyyyyy longer than my interview time.HAHA! did i talked too fast or what? and i spun up wonderful fairytales for my interviewers *giggles*
Q:what makes you think that you can handle a class of 30 small primary2 kids,whose attention span are so shortlived?
A:i think it wouldnt be a problem because i've always been a very patient person and i get along pretty well with my baby cousins da da da da da..............
HAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~~~~total crap.
after the interview,which was at buona vista(which was 2 train stops away from queenstown),i headed to queensway shopping complex for its irresistable curry chicken rice ALONE! aiyah,since i've already went all the way there,how could i possibly miss out on the good food there?!?! after which then i went off to suntec to meet wtp. and i saw this freaking cute pair of twins right beside me.i must have been out of my mind to actually stopped myself from touching/pouncing on them.ARGH!! how i regret not touching his/her fleshy cheeks!! the day ended well with a stupid misunderstanding being resolved and a call from my ________.(:

i've just went to the moe website to checkout the bachelor of arts course offered.wah.the benefits are really tempting.govt pays for your whole course of studies throughtout the 4 years and gives monthly salary of around 1.5k,plus yearly bonus,medical and dental sudsidies blah blah blah...wow..who knows a few years down the road and you guys might be addressing me as "chen lao shi" or "ms ting"...HAHA!! interesting.

2008-05-09T12:31:00.002+08:00

there used to be the 5 of us.innocent,naughty,crappy...............and we all shared the same passion for the same sport.sometimes i'll wonder....did i make the right choice 3 years back then...to break away from them?they've tried to hold me back but i said i've moved on.thinking back,it doesnt really make a difference whether i'm still with them or not.we'll all still carry on leading our lives even without each other.i've found myself new friends,and so have they.sometimes i'll regret,for letting go of this friendship.would i have been much happier if i held on to it? but now...as i look at the kind of life they're leading,i'm convinced that i'd made the correct decision back then.why do people enjoy clubbing so much?maybe i'm still holding on to that little bit of our friendship,that's why it mattered to me so much.to see HER,especially her,whom i've shared the deepest of my thoughts and treasured most,having changed so much...it was a huge blow for me.she's already so skinny and have been in a poor state of health...yet still frequent clubs,pubs,stayed out for the night,having alcohol..dont they ever care about themselves?at times,i really want to voice out my thoughts and concern to her,only her,but i guessed it's too late.i didnt want to disrupt our lives by doing that,but i really want to let her know that she could be leading a much better,healthier life instead.what should i do?what can i do?ROARS!!

let's talk about something happier.(:
oh,i went for tuition tgth w fang fang on monday.our tutor,mrs ho,is a really interesting and entertaining character.she'll blabber on and on and on during lesson and share with us her life story.HAHA!! but that's good,coz she's has already succeeded in keeping us awake--one of the toughest problem GP tutors encounter is to keep their students AWAKE throughout their lessons.congrats mrs ho!! (: ok la.seriously speaking,she's a very kind and patient tutor.she offered to help us get other school's practice ppr.hope she can help me and fang fang ace our GP this time round.(:

the weather is damn disturbing recently.it's hot like shit in the morning then it'll pour suddenly in the afternoon.and damn.i got a fever last friday,plus sore throat,plus flu,AND a cough!! argh.after hearing a terrifying story from audrey(the noisy auntie who likes to yak yak yak loudly in my office and distribute snacks,btw,she's the head of my department! HAHA) about how she used to fall sick when she was at my age and how she thought it was nothing and ended up getting hospitalised for 13 days....and her long story goes on and on and on.....i was determined to visit the doctor,lest i get hospitalised like her too,coz i've already been sick for 5 days!! then as expected,it was a nothing.the doctor jus gave me some cough syrup and pills then poof!, off goes my $30,or should i say my mum's $30.HAHA.but at least the medicine did make my throat feel much better.so friends out there,if you are sick,please go and visit the doctor...dont end up like audrey..hahaha!! oh ya,while i was waiting to collect my medicine,my mum told me an even scarier story...that her friend's son caught a flu and cough for 3 days and didnt visit the doctor...then the 4th day he went into hospital and the flu virus mutated and it became fatal.*faints*

it's already 1310 now.i'm meeting fang fang and pris at 1430 at bugis to study.got to run.bye! (:

2008-04-28T19:13:00.004+08:00

to all my kuku friends who are reading my blog:

hello.hello.hello.hello.hello.hello.hello.hello.
aiyo.and can you all not make fun of my post anot..haha..esp fang fang,pris and duatao!! what's so wrong with me calling him chubby bun?!?!?! haha!!
anw,when are we going to pulau ubin for our cycling trip?? haha..i'm damn bored at home now.nobody wanna hire me!! ): ): ):

the other day,i read about this article interpreting dreams about dropping your teeth. it actually says tt if you dreamt tt your teeth dropped,and you see blood along with it,it bodes well.(: it said smth like it'll mean tt elderly who are sick in your home will recover soon. but if you dreamt that your teeth dropped without seeing any blood along with it...hmm...it's no good and you shld take extra care of the elderly at home and be careful with the way you talk and act while out at work.(:

dunno what else to say..i go watch channel 8 ah wang liaoz! byebye!! (:

2008-04-16T13:05:00.002+08:00

hello my dear friends! after dunno how many gozilla years..i'm back! hohoho.fang fang must be feeling damn excited when reading this post.(: hmm..actually i dont really have anything in mind to blog about..so many things have happened since my last entry................let me recall a few important ones....

(1)prom
(2)i've got a job--the pay was good but the job sucked big time.i almost transformed into a robot.
(3)fang fang joined me in my workplace--"FANG FANG!! WHERE"S MY QUOTA CARD?!?!" and rmb auntie rebecca? haha!! she's so CUTE!! i miss her ):
(4)ltc x'mas outing at sentosa=fun fun fun and more FUN!! :D we each brought some home-made food and had picnic and played volleyball,basketball and captain's ball till the skies turned black.hoho.and we had our gift exchange! (:
(5)testimonial match--like FINALLY managed to complete the match.we won 3-1! kudos to all seniors for playing so well! (:
(6)29th of feb--the leap year or should i say MY leap year. :D :D :D i'm a lucky girl.
(7)release of A'levels result--happy+sad?
(8)10th of april--i miss my boy!!!
(9)my thailand trip with my khakis!! :D
(10)ltc in july--hope it'll be fun!! wahaha.

hmm...guessed it'll be rather boring if i jus end my entry here..and i've promised fang fang a long entry for this..so let me talk about smoething recent....
hmm...
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DUA TAO's birthday! wah piangs! cannot tahan tt crazy PRINCE! she actually celebrated her 19th birthday in kovan mcdonalds!!! and her theme was pyjamas! -______- actually unlike other girls there..i dont really think tt it was tt embarrassing after all.aiya..it's jus a party and like who would recognise you after tt day? moreover,i'm not tt kind of girl tt'll bother about how others look at me,all tt matters is tt i have my share of fun!! :D and as my friends know..i'm the sort that can shout/scream in the middle of the road in town..HAHA!! but the party was quite a success..coz her friends were all sporting enough to bring and change into pyjamas..and the mcdonalds party manager(2 aunties) were really entertaining!! :D

my thoughts are all jumbled up now..so please dont mind me if you see that whatever i'm saying does not make sense and are not linked.haha.

i feel like mentioning a lil bit about my chubby bun in this entry.haha.and ya,friends oh friends,please dont mind me if you keep hearing me talking about him ever since...haha!! coz i cant help it either!! (: hmm..on second thoughts..i'd better not say too much in here..shall leave all the juicy/mushy stuffs for my diary.hohoho.

it's going to rain soon!! ): i dislike rainy days!! and i think i shall end here.haha.

i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him!!!

2007-12-04T11:01:00.000+08:00

in 6 hours time,i'll be leaving house for prom.but i've yet to get my hair done.haha.after this post maybe.(:

ok.so on the 2nd of dec, i met up with my LTC group.haha.YES!! we still exist!! coz i heard that some of my group mates' friend were shocked when they heard that SIR LIONELL is still meeting up,even after 1yr plus from the camp itself.i'm glad that we've survived through the block test,mid-yrs,prelims and A's together.although sir lionell was not the most active and rowdy group amongst all the others during ltc,but apparently,i think we're the most bonded and united group.at least we still make the effort to organise outings,if not,attend outings(for those that are not organising),and catch up with one another up till this day.and we nvr had awkward silence even though we only meet up once in awhile.(: it feels good to still be hanging out with fellow leaders that i've learnt and shared experiences with before.i think we've had numerous breakfast session and 3 outings so far.and there's an upcoming x'mas gathering too! HOORAYS!! we also have plans for going on kayaking too! hohoho.i'm getting so excited that i'm going to hyperventilate!! haha!! love them loads.<3

i went to the dentist yesterday.i hate dental visits!! and i had nightmares when i was sleeping.the drilling sound was damn disgusting and scary. i felt like dying when i stepped into the clinic.perhaps this is my greatest fear.sighs.

after which i went to orchid country club for wedding dinner(YES!! WEDDING DINNER AGAIN!)--the 2nd one in a week.the grand ballroom was majestic.the decorations were ..urgh..i dunno how to describe.jus know that it's pretty.the videos and the couple's entrance(with 2 rows of police officers in white uniform,holding their swords high in a criss-cross manner,just like those during NDP)....it just seemed to be the perfect wedding.it made me felt like getting married too!!! i think the photographers who took the photos that made up the videos were superb la.the angles,emotions and expressions caught were..urgh..i dunno how to describe again! i was touched la.it's called tucky's photograhy or smth.yep.and the second entrance the couple made was in a car..smth like those used in golf course but smaller and nicer.aww.and of course,not forgetting the food! grade A ok.the jellyfish,cuttlefish,shark's fin,prawns,fish,abalone,roasted pig,scallops,lotus leaf rice(best i've ever had) and yam dessert.the seafood were super fresh.and there were 8 of us at the table,and the portion for each dish was for 10.haha.all of us were too full by the 8th dish to even try the 9th and 10th dish.i'm so going to burst my prom dress today la!!

its 1155 now.i going to make my hair in an hour's time.be back in 2 hour's time.cheryl,keli and pris coming over in 3 hour's time.dressing up and doing make up in 4-5 hours time,and last but not least,leaving for marriot in 6 hour's time.i wonder if i have enough energy to last me through the night,especially for post prom.haha!! (:

meeting up with gracians this thurs and on next mon.<3
gonna meet up w my 10 year pal,jessica. and my muaah chee friend,eileen.plus mahjong with olivia,fangyu and cat soon! i wanna get a job,but guess i'm too busy for it! haha. :X

2007-12-02T01:07:00.000+08:00

hello people!! i'm back.haha.ok.actually i'm back yesterday.(:
my trip to malaysia was fruitful.i've got what i needed and i saw people whom i've longed to see. i have a cousin,his name is jason.haha.we're very close.he tells me all his secrets and i told him mine too.he has a sister,and i treat him like my own brother.he was showing me all the sms'es in his phone(that he didnt even allow his sis to see) when i felt that someone was staring hard at me.haha.it was his sis.he whispered and said that his sis is jealous of me,coz she feels that i'm closer to her brother compared to herself.for a moment,i felt bad/guilty.coz i have siblings too.i totally know how it felt like.it's like sometimes when there are cute/close cousins around and all attention are suddenly diverted away from me,i feel neglected.but when everyone leaves and everything goes back to normal,i feel loved again.haha.it's really hard to share your siblings with others sometimes.but i have 3,maybe the impact is not as bad.haha.i could see that his sis loves him as much as i do,maybe even more than me,and i told him that.but he said that there are many things that i can do which his sis cant.and that makes him like me more.maybe its because he's too used to having his sis aound everyday,and not like me,whom he only gets to see once or twice a year.hmm..it's complicated..i have another cousin.her name is rebekah.she is so pretty,just like a fairy/princess.haha.sometimes out of the blue,she'll just hug me(actually is my legs,coz she's still small).haha.aww..so sweet.she spent a whole night making a card for me before i left.i love her.haha.such a sweet girl.she has a doting brother.i always think that guys who knows how to dote on their younger sister would treat their girlfriend likewise.i suppose rebekah's brother is one of those.haha.he's only 14 btw.but he's a mature young kid.he goes home and finishes up his homework everyday after school and looks after his sister,just like a nanny.and he's one of those rare young boys who doesnt play w psp,gameboy,computer games.he plays sudoku instead.HAHA!

enough about my relatives...lalala~ and i'm back in singapore custom.i met with some trouble coz i bought some bubble gums back for my friends.urgh.but nothing serious.and i'm aching all over due to the heavy,super heavy,ultra HEAVY luggages!!!!

---to be continued---

hello! at last i get to blog again.had been really busy for the past few days.haha.
ohh..btw,i forgot to mention abt another distant relative of mine tt i saw for the first time during my malaysia trip.his name is wei xian.he is 7 years old.he has small eyes and fleshy ears.his totally fits the typical 'xiao pang' category kind of kids that i cant resist!! but he's an oddball. coz he'll drift around the corridor and suddenly stares into space or face the wall for quite some time.haha.cute hor? then of course when he drifts past me i'll grab the chance to touch his hair and pinch his chubby cheeks.OHH~I LOVE HIS CHEEKS!! haha.btw,i'm not paedophile hor! then he's kinda cute,he'll keep drifting in and out of the house to look for me,but ignores me when i call him.haha.then when i asked him who is he looking for,he said he's looking for me!! i knew i was popular with kids all along..haha!! then when i was leaving,he rushed out to the door and shouted across the corridor "JIE JIE BYE BYE!!!".i love kids,especially chubby ones. (:

went to vivo with sis on the 1st of dec.she keeps asking me out recently.haha.and my parents always trys to ask me abt her stuffs.tsk tsk.we were trying to look for a nice necklace to go with my dress but couldnt really find any.then we went into shops selling baby's stuffs.we went mad inside.HAHA! everything is so minature and irresistably cute la~! and we've also realised that it's expensive to raise kids nowadays..then the both of us were looking out for the larger sizes of the kid's shirt that we can fit into.haha. anyway...met up with catherine after that.and we went to the skypark to "part tor".haha.ohh! and i bought the zara sweater tt i saw the other day! (: i feel accomplished. (: (: (:

2007-11-26T12:12:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving for m'sia(yes,again!) in a few hours time.(: miss me not my friends,for i'll be back pretty soon.(:
i have a life before A's, it's called no life. haha. i have a life after A's, it revolves around shopping, tv'ing, job-hunting, kicking, shopping, shopping, and more shopping.haha.i've finally figured out why i didnt like shopping in the past.it's because of the people whom i go together with.(: i kinda like shopping now.maybe because i'm too deprived for the past few months.haha.

i'm going to attend 2 wedding dinners before d&d.i'm afraid i cant fit into the dress anymore.haha. :(

2007-11-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

i went for an interview yesterday. for a monotonous office job that pay $6/hr plus incentives. although the pay is not fantastic and the job is not what i'm really interested in, but i still hope i get the job. coz i'm lazy to go for more interviews and job hunting. and the plus point abt the job is that it's near my house, so i can save on transportation fees.haha. at least this job beats retailing and others like full-time f&b crew, which makes you work like a bull and pays so little that you can barely feed yourself.haha.

oh! and i met an interesting guy on my way home yesterday. he's some insurance agent doing some survey at the interchange.haha. the survey questions kinda dumb.
1.Do you eat fish everyday?
2.Do you like vegetables?
--end--
after answering the 2 qns, i was abt to walk off and the guy started chatting with me.i think he must be very bored. haha. it was damn awkward coz i'll try to walk off everytime he finishes his sentence, but he'll continue on. -______- quite cute la.haha. and then i rewarded myself with an apple strudel for doing something contructive(going for an interview..HAHA!!) for the day.

i want to earn big bucks and go to hongkong/thailand/taiwan for holiday!! :O anybody wanna join me in my trip? haha.(:

2007-11-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

i have a cute and loving father.he'll call home a few times daily to check on us.(:
when he calls......

*pardon me for using hanyupinyin,coz my han shen is down. :X*
scenario 1:
him:"shui zai jia?"
me:"mei you ren."
him:"kor kor leh?"
me:"bu zai."
him:"jie jie leh?"
me:"bu zai!"
him:"mummy leh?"
me:"BU ZAI! ZHI YOU WO YI GE REN ZAI JIA!!!"

scenario 2:
him:"shui zai jia?"
me:"mei you ren."
him:"then ni bu shi ren meh?"
me: -_____-

that's the standard things he'll nvr fail to ask/say when he calls home.he does that to me,my 2 bros and my sis.haha.FUNNY LAH!! :D

spent the day out with huifang and yunxuan yesterday in town.(:
I HATE SHOPPING! i was so tired after shopping for 4 hours that i actually took a nap(lying on the table) after dinner.haha. :X

more jokes. :D
Q:Why is a room full of married people empty?
A:Because there's not a single person in it.

Hoppy days
funny
Why did the frog wear a mask to the bank?
He said he wanted to "rob-bit."

funnier
Why are frogs so happy?
They eat whatever bugs them.

funniest
What do you call a frog that crosses the road, jumps in a puddle and crosses the road again?
A dirty double-crosser.

The doctor's office was crowded as usual, but the doctor was painfully slow. After waiting for two hours, an old man stood up and started walking towards the door.
"Where are you going?" the receptionist called out.
"Well," he said. "I figured I'd go home and die a natural death."

When my six-year-old son,Micheal, refused to go to bed because he was afraid of monsters, I devised a plan. I filled a spray bottle with water and attached a "CREATURE REPELLENT" label, complete with instructions. This worked for a while until Micheal refused to go to bed once more. Frustrated, I told him that the monsters were just imaginary. "Oh,yeah?" he responded. "So how come they sell creature repellent?"

Numbers game
funny
What did 0 say to 8?
"Nice belt."

funnier
Why is 6 afraid of 7?
Because 7 8 9.

funniest
What did 2 said to 3 about the unruly 6?
"Don't mind him.
He's just the product of our times."

did the jokes make you happy? haha. (:

"don't ever be discouraged. because discouragement leads to disappointment, and disappointment leads to failure."---from channel 8 drama serial Ah Hock.

2007-11-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

hello people! check out my new blogskin~ haha!
actually i've found a few others,but i thought that this is the most eye-catching one.haha.i feel happy when i view my blog,do you? (:

econs case study on the 14th was manageable,but i still couldnt finish on time. ):
when i heard the invigilator announcing "stop writing.",it officially commenced the end of my A'levels.woohoo~! then came a few ppl flocking to my table,ppl like huiyen,justina,zonglin...came to congratulate me.hoho.i pulled my party popper as planned.haha.but i was so cowardly when i pulled it coz i haven played w party poppers for years.haha.X: and gotta thank chu mei mei(chujun) for her balloons and chocolate gifts.i haven received/bought/played w balloons for ages.especially an elmo one.haha.she's such a sweet girl.(: i didnt expect that she'll rmb my birthday lah.haha.it came as a pleasant surprise after my disastrous econs ppr 2, and it cheered me up.(: it's not at all difficult to make someone's day,it's just a matter of sincerity.

went back to school to kick after huifang's human geo ppr.haha.i still see ppl mugging around in school.boohoohoo.so poorthing~~*smacks myself* haha.and ppl like tanny still have to endure the agony of waiting for 5 days(=120hrs) for 1hr of physics mcq,with only 30 qns.that means they'll have 4hrs ro revise for every qns.HAHAHAHAHA!! we kicked and played volleyball.it's been long since we had such fun.pris still looks as 'cartoony' as ever(the way she runs,smile,talk...) haha.

after kicking i met my second bro at fareast for my make-up birthday celebration.(: we shopped around and it's damn dumb to go shopping w brothers! he'll jus stand somewhere outside whichever shop which i went into coz everyone else in the shop are ladies and he didnt want to enter.then i felt dumb too when i turned around to find no one to offer me comments for items which i've spotted! argh! but i still got my belated bithday gift(coz i forced him into the shop! hiak hiak).a pair of plain black shoes.(: 2nd bro was very sweet.he helped me to carry my bag which weigh a ton coz of my soccerboots and stuffs.awww..(: and he treated me to my favourite ramen ten.(: (: (:

met up w big bro and his gf after lunch. got another gift from big bro too! it's a soccer related green bag.very unique but kinda ex.but big bro still bought it for me even though he's broke.): went down to sim lim to collect our new computer too! big bro cooked steak for dinner.i think he can go and be a cook someday if he decides not to be a lawyer anymore.haha.

i must have been a good man who've done alot of good deeds in my previous life to deserve such doting siblings.hohoho.i guess i really owe them a lot/they owe me a lot? haha.

all the best to all those who are still battling on w a'levels.JIAYOU!!(: while i search for my path to wealth.sighs.working is no fun.):

2007-11-12T11:42:00.000+08:00

YAY!! i'm finally 18. (: i'm getting really pissed at blogger.coz i've bee trying to blog for the past 3 days and i couldnt!! argh!!

i was actually trying to start on econs on sat.then my sis came back and brought me out for a birthday meal. :D tt's the good thing about being the youngest. haha ! just gotta survive through those pushing around/ordering/bullying during childhood and i can reap endless benefits.but they didnt really torture me tt much when i'm young too.it's either i'm too fortunate or i'm too 乖。we went to this japanese western restaurant at central,Ma'Maison if i'm not wrong. i ordered oven baked fish.the fish was so fresh tt it felt like it swam directly from the ocean into my mouth.wahaha.ok,i'm exaggerating a little but i swear it's really fresh and nice! then sis told me about her first love.*shhh*secret.after dinner we walked around and went to wisma.the 'saturday late night shopping' was crap! there were only a few shops left open la.haha.

gotta thank the following for their well-wishes on my birthday:
cheryl,justina,keli,jinyu(thanks for the gift girls! :D),huifang,huiting,zonglin,cunzheng,huiqi,huiyen,reuben,didi,shujuan,benjaja,ben loh,mr chew,puiboon,lewis,yunxuan,shiying,esther,er kor kor and cheryl's imaginary friend.haha.

might be trying to place a bet in some s'pore pools soon.heard that first timer have better luck,if i strike a windfall, i wouldnt need to work for the next 6 months!! and i'll give all my friends a treat! wish me luck.(:

some random stuffs.
QUOTABLE QUOTES.

1.The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasently surprised.---George Will.

2.You'll never acheieve 100% if 99% is OK.---Will Smith.

3.Dealing with backstabbers,there was one thing I learned.They're only powerful when you got your back turned.---Eminem.

4.Doing nothing is very hard to do-you never know when you're finished.---Leslie Nielsen.

5.Death and taxes may be the only certain things in life,but at least death doesn't get worse every time Congress meets.---Joe Moore.

6.The most important thing to do if you find yourself in a hole is to stop digging.---Warren Buffett.

7.It doesnt matter how many times you fail.It doesnt matter how many times you get it almost right.All that matters is that you get it right once.Then everyone can tell you how lucky you are.---Mark Cuban.

LAUGHTER,THE BEST MEDICINE.

Eleven people-ten men and one woman-were clinging to a rope hanging down from a helicopter.they decided one person had to let go or they would all die.the woman gave a touching speech about how she would give up her life to save the others because females were used to making sacrifices for thier husbands and children and not receiving anything in return.when she finished speaking,all the men clapped.

funny
...i keep having deja vu.
Doc:Didnt I see you yesterday?

funnier
...My son swallowed a roll of films.
Doc:Let's wait and see what develops.

funiest
...I feel like a dog.
Doc:How long has this been going on?
Patient:Since i was a puppy.

Q:why don't oysters give to charity?
A:they're shellfish.

Dorothy goes home to her husband Jim,ecstatic about a dress she bought during a sale.
"Look at this,"she says."I bought this for a ridiculous figure."
"Yeah,I know,"says Jim,"but how much did you pay for it?"

A male and female driver are involved in a horrific collision.Amazingly,they escape unhurt.As they crawl from the wreckage,the man notices that the woman is attractive.She turns to him and gushes,"We shouldnt have survived that.Maybe it's a sign that we're meant to be together."
"And look,"she continues."Though my car was destroyed,this bottle of wine is intact.It's another sign.Let's drink to our love!"
"OK!"says the man,going with the moment.He drinks half the bottle and hands it back,"Your turn."
"No,thanks,"says the woman."I think I'll just wait for the police."

haha.hope you all had fun reading the jokes.(:
will post more next time. :D
meanwhile...SMILE! coz i'm ending my A's in 2 days time!! (: HIP HIP HURRAY!

if i could spread a disease....i would spread laughters all around the globe!! coz it's contagious!! haha.

“一直逃避，我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记，我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三，慢慢经过，我们一起绕过的十字街口，怎么走都走不到尽头。。。
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可不可以别回头，可不可以就放手，可不可以不做你的朋友。。。”---from SHE 不做你的朋友.

选择逃避固然不是一条容易走的路，但跟面对比起来，的确容易多了。

2007-11-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

生活小篇章：

那一天，我在上学的路上看见在生活中常被人们忽视的一幕。
过马路的时候，我看见了一位马来妇女，她带着三个儿子迎面走来。大儿子和二儿子都很小，才刚上幼稚园。妈妈一只手推着小儿子的婴儿车，另一只手牵着二儿子。在过马路的时候，二儿子悄悄地把眼睛关上，让妈妈牵着自己的手过马路。他是那么毫无保留的把自己的生命完完全全的交托给妈妈，那一份信任，或许只有小朋友才有吧。

那一天，我在同的时间，在同一个巴士站，等着同样一辆巴士，却看见了不一样的景色。
有一个哥哥，牵着他的妹妹，一起分享一支雪糕。又看见一对中年夫妇牵着手走过。这种如分享雪糕或牵手的小动作/细节所展示的是深一层的情感与相惜。我能感受到从中散发出的幸福感觉，你也感受的了吗？

ok.the above are jus some random thoughts and observations i've made.the first one was from my diary,the second one was from one of my chinese compo.(: haha.i'm a cheena-pok! but some things are jus better expressed in chinese.so...YES! geo ppr on monday was a killer! or should i say i committed suicide by not being prepared enough for it..i only started studying for it on sunday night,till mon morning.urgh.forget abt it.大势已去。。。。
then it was math p2 on tues...nothing worth mentioning,coz its math.HAHA.

suddenly became very 怀旧 recently..it started when huifang and i went to pasar malam to walk walk after chi p1 e other day. i couldnt help but to keep on exclaiming "AYE!!" when i saw the things on display,coz it has been sooooooooo long since i last went to pasar malam to gai gai.i couldnt even recall when was the last time.haha. we bought lots of spongebob stickers!! yes!! STICKERS!! cant believe tt i'm still buying stickers at the age of 17. and i got lots of ultraman stickers too! :D 原来快乐是那么的简单。then we came by a stall (those under the void-deck kind) and started looking for Bee-Gees, Beatles, and micheal jackson cassette tapes.and of course,we bought it.HAHA.and i listened to it the first thing i got home.the quality not as good as the CDs now la.haha.and for the past few days,i've been looking through my past years class photos..i got so tickled by the retro hairstyle(extreme side parting/centre parting) tt the guys used to have in the past,and the funny hairstyles of the girls too.haha. then i noticed the change in everyone,including me.
"The only thing that's constant is change."---how ironic isnt it..? and i went through my previous diary entries and baby photos.haha.超怀旧的咯！

好歌介绍：梁泳琪“原来爱情那么伤”
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“。。。你曾住在我的心上，
现在空了一个地方，
原来爱情这么伤，
比想象中还难，
泪水总是不听话，
幸福躲起来不声不响，
太多道理太牵强，道理全是一样，
说的时候很简单，爱上后却。。。。（sorry,i dunno the four words here.haha.），
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。。。只想变得坚强，强到能够去忘，
无所谓悲伤，只要学会抵抗，
原来爱情这么伤。。。
原来爱情是这样，这样风回路转，
泪水明明流不干，瞎了眼还要再爱一趟，
有一天终于打完，
思念的一场仗，
回过头再看一看，
原来爱情那么伤。
下次还会不会这样。”

2007-11-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

hohoho.i'm back,in the midst of A'levels...
realised tt it've been quite some time since i last updated.hohoho.not my fault ok..i wanted to blog but my post didnt get published..):
let me summarise the whole of my 2007 life~~~
well..where shall i start...
1. no more soccer,no more training,no more fun and games...and all these sums up to--> ):
2. endless test,mock test,exams blah blah blah...---> ):
3. got closer with some,drifted apart from others.----> ):
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N. haha.there's so much tt i wanted to say,but couldnt rmb. x:
ok! so i'm already down w 2.5 subs for my A's.left w half the battle.hoho.and plz allow me to reiterate again...MY A'S FINISHES ON THE 14TH OF NOV..in less than 2 weeks time.hoho.to those physics,bio and e.lit students..ENVY ME NOT! :P

hmm.nvr really realised the good side abt exams until now.haha..according to studies done by prof ting,which is me(HAHA!)..results shows tt exams draws students closer to their family(provided that they stay home and study whole day long)..haha..it's very true for me leh.

PROOF:
my sis comes home everyday and says the same line everyday "eeee,u're so poorthing" / "eeee,ni heng ke lian leh" coz she'll see me sitting on my bed,surrounded by all my notes.):
my monsterous sis would also sit right oppsite to watch VCD for the whole day while i mug my guts out..and she jus wouldnt turn down the volume!!AND AND AND!!! she'll keep trying to psycho me to watch together with her.): but i didnt fell for it. :D
plus,her wish for me is "aiya,last minute study no use one la" / "E for econs?G for gp?*laughs*" urgh. but she's still nice lar.haha.she will share all her latest lame jokes with me and buy food for me to eat.(: and we'll sit at the swing and reminisce abt our childhood times.we've nvr been this close.haha.(:

my mummy plans her daily schedule according to my examination dates and time.haha.I FEEL SO LOVED.coz she'll wake me up,cook whatever i want to eat,brew tonic soup or whatever nutritious stuff to boost my brain power,pardons me for taking cab to school and sms/call to wish me good luck for every paper.

and practically the whole of my family gives in to me during this period.YES! I HAVE A HAPPY AND LOVING FAMILY! that's why i dont see a need for any boyfriend.hahaha.ok.this is going to be quite a long post...but i'll try to keep it short.haha.

back to A's. i had my chi p1 on mon,gp on wed,chi p2 on thurs and math p1 jus a few hours ago.
hmm.aint really confident for any particular paper.but none felt too bad either. chi and gp compre were kinda tough.): ok...i'm left w geo,math p2 and econs and i'm done w A's.will bring party poppers on 14th of nov.hohoho.

i'm getting so excited over post-A's activities:
1.dinner and dance.
2.meet up w grac'ians.
3.meet up w modest'ians.
4.kick some balls.
5.earn some bucks.
6.buy some stuffs.
7.watch VCD/TV.

i shall stop here.(: going to catch some sleep.(:
will update again SOON. :D
oh,jus a note: my birthday's coming!!

2007-01-23T12:48:00.000+08:00

GIRLS SOCCER IS FINALLY OFFICATED!! hoorays!! (: (: (: with fundings,3 FAS women's coaches and more respect from other CCAs..and i also got my new phone...no more 'lao kok kok' x70 already ok...(: final item left on my list is adizero..should be able to get it after chinese new year..(:

random thoughts......hmm.j2 life really sucked.jus realised how much i've been missing out on the outside world when i went to dohby ghaut last weekend,and saw the new dohby exchange mall or smth.please dun laugh at me upon reading this.coz i have fellow 'sua ku' and lifeless friends like cheryl dan,who gave me the 'ISSIT?GOT NEW ONE?!' remarks when i told her about it.haha.what a life are we leading....):

soccer training.hmm.hope tt we'll be much stronger by the time competition comes and get a placing this year.seriously,i cant wait to step down although i still want to carry on kicking around.it's so draining.all the endless plannings and execution of plans.i'm so suffocated.

had a nice after-meal chat w cheryl after training yesterday.discovered many problems tt remains unsolved.some often take things for granted.search your souls,have u ever really appreciated what's always there? like having the balls taken out and on the field,having ur bottles refilled,having designs for banners,and much much more...small as it may seemed but it've always been these little actions tt had been keeping the team together..have u ever been the one volunteering to do all these all along?or are u jus keeping quiet by the side and wishing tt someone will step out to do the job?are u guilty of grumbling over things u are asked to do? i must admit tt i've failed to accomplish my task of being a good captain.i've failed,terribly.giving in is not a solution at all.hmm...

whatever it is,i still gotta persevere and in 3 month's time, i'll be freed!! no grudges no nothing,jus wanna be relieved from this heavy burden.but the beautiful memories would still remain.i will still love the team no matter what comes along.hmm.so being a leader is not as easy as it seemed.i agree tt sometimes being a follower is much better.(:

school,family,friends,blah blah blah.why do things always have to get more complicated when u grow older.BAHH!!!

2006-12-23T11:47:00.000+08:00

hmm..haha..so it really does make one feel better after pouring out all your woes to a trusted friend.words of comfort are absolutely not redundant.it's good to know that there's people out there willing to listen and share your troubles with you.

i hate that feeling.the one where you feel your heart crumbling and yet there's nothing you can do to make it stop.eeks. will things still be the same?argh!

i must be strong.coz there's always sunshine after rain.

hmm.anyway,i won at mahjong yesterday. (:

2006-12-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

HELLO! ms slacker blogger is back.(:

the highlight is of course leadership training camp!!
tinta,tinta,lionell,lionell!woo~!!
my group sir lionell consists of 11 knights and 3 escorts.
knights:eunice(soccer cap),valerie(class chair),germaine(s.c.),chin ping(netball cap),vanessa(drama pres),lynette(volleyball),mervis(s.c),lincoln(class chair),lewis(cnny deputy director)haha,benjamin(squash cap),jin sheng(kayak qm).
escorts:fawwas(rugby cap),wei jun(s.c),ping qi(s.c)

so sir lionell started out on our journey.high elements on the first day.belaying super fun la.we had the honour of having ms audrey to teach us personally.woo hoo~!! i'll nvr forget those belaying commands.the trust tt we have and laid in our teammates hands.it's beyond what words can convey.1st day already marks a good strat for sir lionell journey.hmm.let's carry on our story. from those little ice-breakers stations..i see the glowing light from everyone..the potential in sir lionell.(:
so..we tried zip line(flying fox) and abseiling in the rain.cool.taking the step off the platform of flying fox really requires a great deal of courage.i took a few seconds and i jumped off.so..tt's how its feels like when committing suicide.haha.abseiling also.the first step is always the hardest.to lean back into the air.wow.haha.i can still feel my heart pounding.plus.there's freaking lot of mosquitoes there.and one stung the bottom of my eye.at the cheek there.sick!!

with barely enough sleep,less than 5 hours,we began on our day 2 adventure.morning w high element again.jin sheng and i conquered vertical challenge.the scenary on the top made all the sweat and algae i got onto my shirt worthwhile.my butt hurts.like it was hammered.ouch.the harness is killing me.i'll nvr forget the view when we got on top.memorable.then we went on to rock climbing.haha.no kick.maybe it's becoz it's indoor.should have tried the outdoor one.more challenging.too bad it's faulty.): after tt we went for urban quest after being forced to drink 7 bottles of 1.5l water.i almost burst my bladder on the bus.omg.our faces on the bus were damn funny.haha.urban quest was quite dumb.keep taking buses.lame.haha.the outdoor cooking part was fun nonetheless.(: jin sheng,our dear scout,set a strong fire quickly.bravo!!i cooked the baked beans w eggs.super yummy!!hiak.and our cupcorn rocks big time.haha.then pitching of tents.bathing w our shirts on.hees.fond memories.laughing and chatting across tents while everyone else is asleep.hmm.lionell spirit.ya.not to forget night quest.a big success.very fun and meaningful.though i partnered w someone from another group.(: jia jian from robotics.great partner.(: the grass was so much more comfortable than our bunks in jln bahtera.(:

third day--not enough sleep again!! rafting and kayak school.very fun.lionell managed to build the best raft of all.of coz w the help of our dear scout,jin sheng and dear guides,vanessa.but the rest of us helped out too.(: capsize drill was not as scary as i thought.instead it was very very fun!!though the sea water kind of salty.haha.

day 4--kayaking and then finale night.hmm.felt sad and a little emo.i dont want the camp to end so fast.our skit was a huge success too!! hoorays lionell!! and pallenol(not sure of the spelling).but yep.many said tt our skit is the best.(:

met up w fellow lionell mates yesterday for supper.yummy.i'm so happy.all turned up except for those tt went overseas.we bonded more than i expected.2 more meetings lined up.envy me ppl.hees.i feel so fortunate.(:

hmm.some reflections...perhaps some things are not meant to be.i know and i have already let go.it's tiring to cling onto things that are already fading/gone.i feel happier now.although i still feel a little jealous or whatsoever when i see pictures of you all,but i dont feel that we're lacking of each other.you dont need me,i dont need you.simple.those smile,what exectly lies behind them?sincerity or hypocritiness?i'm not interested in finding out.fullstop.(:

2006-11-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

Yay!! i'm finally seventeen.(:
thanks to all who remembered my birthday.(:
had finger licking good crabs on my birthday.supported dragonboat on sat and sun.hmm.then soccer bbq.no wonder i had ulcers.haha.anyway great get together w the girls.lots of laughters and fun on top of our retro outfit.justina's yellow strips w 2 pockets shirt was an eye-opener for me.then came jin yu.w her mum's green flowery top.WOW! hui fang and cheryl did a great job too.haha.but pris was too modern.nice try though.(: hiak.

then it was k-box w ben,yong chao and shu juan.we fought till the end w the cheena techno next door w our oldies.deng li jun'd ye lai xiang,tian mi mi,andy lau's wang qing shui, and the 4 da tian wang's songs. of course we won!! wahahaha.blacklisted. and yong chao sang w the super old uncle voice.my belly almost burst.haha.finally went for our geylang frog leg porridge.yummy.! then mahjong time.benjamin,i was supposed to win.coz celebrating my birthday right.then end up u won again...ROARS!! nvm..i'll be back. and next time dun sing those gu niang songs liaoz ar! you are banned!! and dont say what you'll smack yong chao's arse.it's damn gay.haha.

hmm.busy busy busy.after i woke up from a 7 hours nap. washed up and rushed out to meet sylvester.actually planned to watch the 1530 show.ended up i left house at 1530.so you see.i think he's already too used to it.hiak.so he had to wait till i reached PS at 1620.opps,i did it again.hees.bought tickets for the grudge 2.not tt bad for a horror show.but too bad i didnt catch part one.so ended up quite lost.heard him snoring halfway through the movie.yes..he's sleeping!!! i didnt knew tt he stayed up to do his assignment and slept for only 2 hours until he told me after the movie.alamak.and it's freaking cold in the cinema.brrr~ broke up for around 3 years le....and we're still good friends.hmm.kudos to us.(: tt's what i want.wouldnt it be very ironic if a once close couple act like strangers after breaking up? why cant they remain as friends? it's totally possible.i'm one good example. (:

i'm still not having a break.accompanied zong lin to go see sinseh before going for training.futsal training in yio chu kang primary.it's something special and nice.though the ball is slightly heavier.the corner kick is damn cute.the angle is equal to zero angle.HAHAHA.coz the curve would be totally covered up once u placed the ball on top of it.haha.

resting yet?nope. ):
wentout early to let mum's friend take a look at my hair.actually going to perm it but my fringe too short so nvr perm.): then went to bugis w cousin walk walk.i almost fainted from fatigue. casino royale at tampines mall after that. action all the way.quite worth it.james bond is damn charming.*wolf whistle* hees. here i am. ltc briefing in a few hours time.god.please kill me.

2006-11-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

counting down~~~~~
in less than an hour's time,i'll be seventeen!!
should i rejoice or not?for tt means tt i'm one year older.):
i wish tt i could remain a 17 forever.wish.but i know it'll never come true.

had fun jus now training in the rain.please dont make me fall sick. (:
yep.and teasing jinyu and aloy was the highlight of the day.haha.2 blur blur de.so funny.
baa.

OP.retro party.mahjong.kbox.geylang frog's leg porridge.mahjong.ltc.genting.tuition.
yawns.

2006-11-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

i've finally changed my blogskin.the previous one was eye straining. the dog and the beetle super cute.actually wanted to change to a dinosaur skin...but tt one relates to god..so as a free-thinker,i abandoned tt nice skin..sobs..

2006-11-08T11:35:00.000+08:00

so ever since mahjong marathon on sunday at cheryl's house...everybody has decided to boycott me. ): u evil people!!! dun do this to me!!! ):
but it was an enjoyable night.all of us had fun sharing ourpast and present. and cheryl's younger sis was such a terrorist.kept beating cheryl.no wonder cheryl so skinny now.haha.the prata at prata house was very tasty,but the stupid ice-cream prata so expensive!!! $3!! as if the ice-cream they used was ben and jerry's. damn. monday please come fast.tt marks the end of the stupid PW and the start of our party.(:

2 more days to the BIG day.so yep..some of my friends would be getting me a volleyball.so don't get the same present k? (:

unexpectedly,most of soccerettez are enjoying PT sessions. does it spell success for my plannings?hmm..i hope so.(:

next week would be a busy week.

2006-11-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

hmm..in order to facilitate all my dearest friends..i've come up with the price and location of my potential prezzies.haha.

1.Mikasa volleyball($39.90) i got $10 sportslink voucher,so it'll become $29.90.or can get from queensway shopping complex,cheaper over there.(:

2.Earphones.($--) can get cheap and good one at Sim Lim Square.(:

3.IP zone green jacket.($22 or $19) i cant rmb clearly.any IP zone outlet.ps,lucky plaza,hougang mall...(:

4.Converse creamy white base + red and blueblack strips double tongue shoes($59.90) any converse outlet.(:

5.Jay's newest album.($22.90?)not sure.(:

6.Havaianas white slippers(old model,w prints) ($35.90) can get it at fareast.shop name is check.#04-124.(:

this holiday gives me the creeps.how could one get into holiday mode when everytime i go to school all i see is the J2's mugging or they're jus dismissed from their A's paper?shivers.

9mins of step-up after training today.someone plz chop off my legs can?haha.
training is good.i can see improvements in myself and my teammates.bonds are forming.everyone is making an effort to hold this team together.i couldnt be any happier.(:

LTC is approaching.i'm so excited.except for the fact tt i'm under tt wretched ms choong.she scream till i deaf i'll make her mute.ROARS!hope everything will turn out fine and fun.prays tt she gets sick and cant go.muahahahahaah.i'm evil.

soccer outing.exclusively for REGULAR members only.those tt are only interested in having fun by popping out once in a while,sorry to say,but YOU are not needed,and not invited.yes,we do not have enough players to even form a team.but i'll rather have tt few tt are committed.i wan quality,not quantity.(:

everyone is working during this holiday.i need the bucks,but i need the marks for next year too.heaven,please have a cashy downpour.i'ld willingly be drenched like mad.(: hmm.shall pyscho my big bro to get me something from my birthday too.hees.

hmm.one last note.i'll be going to genting this dec.(: w my madness cousin--ah J. haas.cant wait to see him and wrestle w him.(: quite a long post this time.gonna go catch prison break liaoz.every thurs 10pm.duper nice.MUST see!!!(:

2006-10-30T00:59:00.000+08:00

hmm.i can see cobwebs everywhere around my blog.haha.
so.where shall i start.mahjongs.trainings.games day.promos results.i'm lazy.haha.

tha most important piece of news is tt i'm hitting my seventeenth birthday in like 2 weeks time!!!
troubled over what to get for me?fret not.i've come up w my birthday wishlist to facilitate you guys.hees.
here it goes:

1.Mikasa volleyball
2.New earphones
3.Ip zone green jacket
4.Converse white base + red and blueblack strips double tongue shoes
5.Jay's latest album-yi ran fan te xi
6.Havaianas white slippers(old model,w prints)

there are some other stuffs but it'll be either too expensive or hard to describe.so yepp.refer to the list given when shopping for my prezzie ok.(:

2006-10-04T10:58:00.000+08:00

it's been almost a month since i last blogged.and so so much had happened.
promos, ppl quitting school blah blah blah...
3 more days and i'm done w promos.gonna party for days and nights before i get back the results(:
for those who are freed from exams.please dont laugh at us, chinese students.
i'm not going to blog much in the future too,i'm not a blog-type person in the first place.moreover, this blog has lost it's meaning.i've moved on. (:

2006-09-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

some of the things, we need not have a lot.for me, that few is enough. everything has changed.you,me,he,she,her,them,us.....we know we've drifted. you have lost your footing. i hate the sights and sounds. every action and word seemed so hollow. it's all over.

mugging.mugging.mugging.
maths is getting on my nerves.but it keeps me awake and occupied.perhaps tt's one of the plus point of it.
there's tt thing bugging me.help~!

everything is over.i'll get used to it.very soon,i promise.

2006-09-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

ppl, let me announce.i've jus conquered 2/5 of east coast park. hmm.around 10km.was kind of tired/lazy to finish the whole course.to all those soccerettez who are reading this...are you motivated or inspired by your captain?hope you all have been maintaining ur diet and stamina ok.don't let me,coach nor yourself down,ok? (: i wish that through these little actions of mine,i can keep you girls motivated.(:

had a nice long chat w zong lin after our run.he needed that little bit of enlightenment.words of wisdom popped out from my mouth naturally.haha.despite my size,actually,i'm quite mature one ok.hehe.met mummy at east coast park.she was so happy to see me.haha.aint my mum duper cute?haha.cant stand her.

haha.realised smth.****************************************************************************
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complicated. (: ): (: ): (: ): (: ):

2006-09-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

i admit i was in the wrong,for losing my temper at you.i was spoilt,by you,coz u always gave in to me.u ought to be pissed.take your time to cool down,forgive me if you want.i thought you would understand,it's tough to be what i am.argh.sorry to say, but i really felt that the reason that you gave was totally nonsense.it only takes less than 5 mins to accomplish that.it's a matter of whether you want or not.anyway,sorry.

went back to cchms yesterday.i hate rainy days!! played mac game in canteen where the loser would have to finish up the food.i almost puked,after drinking up half a bottle of milk.met up w eunice goh and fang yu and saw many of my ex-classmates.lavinia,rene(making such a loud announcement upon my arrival,hahas),ying jia,faustine(the former w her make-up THAT thick and the latter seemingly becoming a butch,yucks),jun hui and pearline(still as lovey-dovey as ever),jasmine(e gorgeous purple princess),reuben,darren(the wow) and many more.anyway,saw ms khai,always busy w her 4bn guys.they are so sweet to her,came back every year and always showing care for her.glad to hear from her that my social studies file(gave to her as she needed a model file) was still intact,w the only test that i've passed in there.(: had fun grabbing and shaking rene's head.she's such a toy. spent hours catching up w each other at singpost w lavinia and rene.showed them the photos and told them the story.lavinia said it was so sweet.they wished me luck.showed cat the photo too.everyone guessed correctly when i asked them to spot.no kick.fang yu joined me,ben and shujuan for dinner at pp mini steamboat. yong chao was out w his CR mates,whom he sees less than us, and van was not allowed to come out.after promos yea? in order to save money, we bought the delicious golden mushroom from supermarket,which is like 5 times cheaper from the stall itelf.had a hard time trying to clean the roots and put it in the pot.why am i always doing such things.so gui(3) gui(3) sui(4) sui(4).but it was fun.shujuan did a wonderful job.she even applied the smokescreen method by pretending to look at tt green alien from my bag and popping the stuff into the pot,we were all caught by the surprise and burst out laughing.she's such a pro.i suspect that the 2 tables tt were around us knew what we were doing.malu sia.

stayed and chatted w them and gave my jinsanshun a miss.it's only because it's them ok.not everyone can make me sacrifice my jinsanshun.haha.the feeling never changes when i'm w them.this is what i call friends.

experienced smth and pondered...beneathe all the sweet coatings of love,isnt bitterness what we all will end up tasting?so why do ppl still go for it? (:
the beat has stopped.

2006-08-13T09:45:00.000+08:00

gosh.tutor is coming in an hour's time and here i m blogging without any work done.argh!
okok.short summary.national day celebration started off w a nice morning.so missing 2 day of bus 24 seems to be a blessing in disguise.i stood on assembly ground alone,looking for my friends.poof.he walked past and we smiled at each other.him,"why you nvr take bus 24?".me,"i was late..hees".tt made my day.fund-raise was funny.we automactically went for mac breakfast before starting work and was caught by the mr.tan.he was angry.not because we're eating,but because he couldnt reach me on my 'no reception' phone.): it started off badly.there were like a dozens of blue shirt nus students there already.anyway.it was a meaningful day.went to esther's house to change after watching the performance in sch.when we were walking towards e bus-stop,saw him at the walkway.he saw me too.haas.dumb.it's like damn qiao la.he said bye to me when i was going up e overhead bridge.huifang saw and shouted across the road.wah.scare me.

ok.tt part was typed in the morning.here i am again.(:
so.after bidding him goodbye,me,esther,yunxuan and shiying when to parkway to meet zonglin for pool.(: it seemed like a million srjc'ians were there.gosh.heck.we still got a table and played.steamboat at parkway.they said the tom-tum were duper spicy.i thought tt it was ok.perhaps i'm already immuned to it.still remembered the first time i ate it,tears and mucus were like running water tap.haas. elaine came to join us too.(: chatted and ate.

here come the highlight of the night.MAHJONG!! met up w van and ben at 7.waited one hour and fifteen mins for shu juan at the bus stop.we couldnt reach her on the phone.it was off.and she didnt bothered to contact us coz she thought we'ld carry on w our plans w/o her.): we not tt kind of people k.haas.anyway.missed going to geylang for delicacies.ate at 85 market instead.having a bad runny nose.damn.everything was so tasteless.bought tibits and durians from interchange.yums.our game started when shu juan came.i lost terribly for first round.eeks.then i wondered if it was y short nap or my fortune pendant tt changed my luck for the second round.i won and soon all their tokens were in my tray.like van said,"it would have overflown" haha.yong chao came too.he still havent learnt how to appreciate e heavenly durians.he's always the joker.they way and things he speaks is damn ticklish.cant stand him.and ben is always the brainiest of us all.flooding me w all his 'chimiology' theories.not forgetting van and shu juan.always condem me once i start to win.): haas.more mahjong k kahkis?(: i love the atmosphere and the way we get together.(: so we started off at 9pm plus and ended at 9 am in the morning.mahjong marathon.cool.ben was absolutely bushed and he slept for e longest.after we ended,van and yong chao went into coma.haha.then me,ben and shu juan played taboo.yun xuan and shiying,does this game sounds familiar?haha. it was fun.everything we did was fun,coz we're w the right people. thanks for the night kahkis. yep.and in the middle of the night my mum fried beehoon for us.machiam for refugees.there's like this whole big tray of it and we obviously couldnt finish it.hahas.but they appreciated it and praised my mum's culinary skills.(:
damn zong lin had to call to disturb when i was replenishing my energy after they left.slept till 9pm.woke up to do pw.):
thursday--met up with my group members.discussed abt written report,assigned jobs and dispersed.met up w tmg in chinatown's k-box.woo hoo.luckily i havent lose my voice yet.(:sang from 2 to 7 pm.haha.fun fun and more fun.i was their laughing bag.hahas.they cant stand me.pretended to act les to irritate yun xuan and shiying.my forte.hogged the mic together w shiying.hiak hiak.but yun xuan still sang the most k! went to bugis w shiying after tt for dinner and a walk.enjoying life.
fri-we were on the bus.nothing happening.soccer training rocked.155 sisscors ok!not easy.well done girls.bravo!chomp chomp'ed again.cat and fang yu came to visit me and jin yu.so sweet of them.(: yep..this entry is duper long.shall end here.(:
baah!

2006-08-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

ok.i broke my promise.i didnt blog 2 as i've promised 2 days ago.nothing much actually.yepp.so it was me on the same bus as him on monday.he asked me how was my badminton thingy.we seems to have very little to say to each other.i didnt want to end up like the girl that my friend mentioned at chomp chomp-->she talked too much and the guy mumbled,"ar,shut up la" softly.it's damn pathetic and i have no wish to end up like her.hahas.so anyway..since we've nothing to talk about,we shared music again.i thought that "stand by me" by ben.e.king was a nice song so i played tt.halfway through the song the lyrics goes,"darling darling stand by me,oooohhhh,stand by me..."i got a shock,hope he didnt.seriously i swear it wasnt on purpose.carefully thought abt it and i cant exactly figure out where has tt heart tt race upon seeing him went to.shant think too much.(:
dad signed my horrible result slip on tuesday happily without any comments nor scoldings.perhaps he understand tt i wouldnt need tt extra "reminder" to get me demoralised.sighs.told him one of the qns tt gerda would ask coz she told us what she'll be asking when she calls our parents."what does your child normally do at home?" without second thoughts, my dad said,"mahjong." -__-" dont u guys envy me for having such a great daddy? hahas.he's made my day.i will work hard,for dad,mum,and myself.take my word.(:
perhaps one big fat arse mistake i made was to under-estimate the satisfaction tt i would get from entering poly and not considering going there.oh god.it's too late now.
oh!i'm officially appointed as the soccer captain.thanks girls.(: and the vice-captain is priscilla,lastly,with cherly dan as the treasurer.dont embezzle our funds ar!..hees.just kidding.more physical training will be awaiting all my pretty soccerettez.(: stamina and discipline must be revised! hiak.if only i could be as organised and disciplined in studies like i am towards sports...if only..
ok.ending here.(: baah.

2006-07-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

i'm back.after 6days.(: badminton open,pirates of the carribean,trainings,mahjong and the list goes on.tt's the outline of how my week went.sometimes,he pops up on the bus.all he do is look at me,what does he want?i dont care.perhaps i might just forget him someday,somehow.
bro's not feeling well,gotta shut the com and lights to let him rest.update more in my next entry.sorry.(: smile everyone.

2006-07-23T02:55:00.000+08:00

0318.i'm still awake.watched pirates of e carribean today w my long-lost p.sch bestie butt butt,jessica.i know she loves me alot.coz she has been asking me out since months ago.finally she gets to see me today.(: i love her too k.it's just tt jc life has been keeping me busy,extremely busy. $9.50.worth it.people,go and watch if you had not,2.5hrs show.but damn,there wasn't a proper ending.which meant that i'll have to get ready for pirates of e carribean 3.part one was like 2 yrs back when i watched it,so does it mean that 3 more yrs to part 3?i hope not. told my butt about my story w shine.she gave positive remarks,which i shall refrain from hearing too much of it,lest i get carried away.
is it that hard to stay happy?why are people around me so gloomy and emo?am i supposed to be like them too or should i continue to indulge in my bright and emo-free world?coach is back and that makes me feel more at ease.YA!got a pair of new boots to replace my gone case addidas boots.white nike this time.*drools*
laugh all you can,while you can.leave no words unsaid.(: (:
fatty bon bon please take the bus on monday.ROARS.
can i pinch your cheeks and mess up your hair?
can i be the terrorist that makes your heart thumps harder?haas.
random bon bon language.eEks~!

2006-07-20T12:10:00.000+08:00

(: hello! i'm in the school library with shiying now.happy racial harmony.wearing my indian costume that i bot during sec2.apparently i haven grown any taller since then.):training yesterday was kinda screwed.i felt like i'm making everyone feel lost.those drills and stuffs.the only nicely planned and done part was physical training.thanks to zong lin for helping me w it.(: not to say that i'm a psycho or what..but i jus love seeing the team running hard and pushing themselves during physical training.we'll do that more often,perhaps every training till we get immune to the 'out-of-breathe' syndrome.by then,we'll not be running anymore,we'll be flying.cool isn't it?(:
missed the bus again this morning.don't think he's on the bus too.fat arse.he's such a sleepyhead.always dozing off during lectures.and he's a ultra vainpot.i always catch him doodling w his head.eeks.didnt say hi when we saw each other during flag rising.and jus a moment ago,he was in the canteen and he saw me in my indian costume.he looks stunned.coz i was still in school- u this morning.haha.fashion show uh?actually was abt to say 'hi' then ya..you know.as pernormal,hesitate and off he went..haas.slaps myself.coach's not back yet.how could he jus leave without a word.but i shall exercise my leadership abilities.hiak hiak.MORE PT!! watch out divas.smoochies~
i don't wanna walk alone no more...

2006-07-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

LISTEN UP DIVAS!
ok..to start off..shall bring up the diva la futbol match on saturday.team ny soccerettes.so the divas are as followed:me,jinyu,priscilla,justina,cheng hong,huili,keli and maria.it felt really great to see us really kicking tha ball anad not just chasing after the balls after months of training.all our efforts have paid off,even though we didnt win.the improvement was tremendous.think that coach would be touched if he sees us play.nice coners,kick-ins,cross-in and defending skills.much potential was unleashed,but definitely not to the fullest.i'm sure tt we'll do much much more better in the future.
so..we went going all out for all the games...the ball possession for the first game was like us90% and them 10%.could u imagine that?and they didnt even get the chance to cross into our half,once they reach the middle of the field,the ball would get pumped back to their half by either me or justina,who's always at the back to defend our goal.great game and display of talents.(: sad to say,during the last minute,jinyu committed a hand-ball and they were given a penalty.and they scored.but it's totally obvious who's the stronger one out there.nvm.life's like that.carried on with all our other games and drew all the way,even when we kicked against seniors.could have scored if luck was by our side,we had so many kicks on goal..anyway the organisers were damn cunning,they forced us to wait till the whole event end before we could ger back our deposit.many teams left by then.imagine how much they've earned?lost coach's ball.didnt know how the ball could disappear in less than 5 mins.hais.
took many photos in action.extremely nice,i think can post in sports magazine.hahas.the champions were a team of basketballers.defending champions somemore.oh my goodness.had dinner at newton circus before going home.yepps.mentally and physically drained.
missed the bus today and shared cab w zixuan to school.super tiring to run up the school's slope.i was still marked late.): he was standing right there.(: yepps.and when i left the canteen for i-space,he happened to walk towards me and ya..he waved in a circular motion.how dumb can he get?nonetheless,he's still cute.haas.in sch com lab now.com's gonna shut down by itself soon.gotta run.last point to note.realised that sometimes it's lonely be the one leading.i've gotta learn and adapt.*pats my own shoulder*(:
all the best!(:

2006-07-13T19:20:00.000+08:00

life is great w laughters isn't it?jus had lots of fun shiying,yun xuan and huifang after chinese.i'm named the terrorist.): am i a clown?haha.actually i don't mind being laughed at if tt can get some laughters from everyone.as long as all is happy,it's ok w me.sometimes i might carry jokes too far unintentionally.forgive me ya?i won't be able to say such corny stuffs in real life.so true friends of mine,i know you'll understand and not take it to heart,yea? (:
failed my geo too.did well for the 2 qns that i studeied for.the other 2 was well..haha.my computer-addict bro is going to rush me for the computer soon..): ankle ankle please heal fast.i need you on saturday.diva lafutbol is waiting for me.
stupid coac suggested that i might need some sunshine for my ankle to heal.haas.dumb.
ROARS!

2006-07-11T20:05:00.000+08:00

some words are better left unsaid.jus wanna remind some people out there that sometimes in life,things wont always go the way u wan it to be.u wont be hearing nice things or viewing nice stuffs everyday.u grow,u learn and u adapt.we are not born with everything,in fact,nothing.angels appear in our lives to teach,add values and knowledge to our empty life.be appreciative.think back and recall,that once you know nuts about something,and now you've mastered it,you might think that you're not in the wrong.some words prick.but try not to take things too hard,it not only makes your life hard,but others too.jus tt little bit of tolerance and courage to accept criticism,you might receive more than you expect.nobody is in the wrong,it was only tt little bit of miscommunication.i'm gonna be cliche..."forgive and forget".only you know what i mean.no offence.

*poof*back to my normal cranky self.(:
sunshine finally made it on time today.dumbarse.haha.yeps.first time he walked up to say hello to me at the bus-stop.hees.didnt dare to look at him when i was standing beside him along the aisle.didnt wait for him after alighting.didnt make anything happen.kill me plz.haas.got back my horrible chinese resuls.regretting more and more ever since the exams.shouldnt have taken chinese as h2 and geo as h1.should have taken h2 geo and h1 chem or physics.regrets.regrets.regrets.seriously i'm like much much more confident in my geo than chi.my confidence is smashed and shattered.i've always thought that my chinese would make me lift my head high.but now,can someone find me a hole please?
do i look older recently?so much stress and stuffs going on simultaneously.my life is jumbled up,the path in front of me is as blur as your specs when u alight from an air-con bus.haas.see,i jus cant stop making fun out of everyday.what's happening to me?!
flooded w thoughts.your hint or my guess?
*ROARS*

2006-07-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

you are my sunshine,my only sunshine,you make me happy when skies are grey...(:
shan't mention about my disgusting results,nothing worth mentioning about anyway.congrats to those who have passed.and elaine did TMG proud by topping class in econs.apparently i'm the most useless one in TMG.failing 3 H2.haiz.sorry guys.next time i'll have to mug more and wont be joining u guys in the fun as much,dun miss me yea?i'm not entitled to enjoyments since i dont deserve it.sighs.
back to sunshine,at least he made my days.haas.
soccer training was fulfilling.more on tactics and strategies.(: only sports allows me to be off the stress and have fun.he was playing basketball.he played for so long today.hmm..could sense tt he was behind me when i came out from the gym toilet,but i didnt turn around.haas.wed was worse.he came down from the stairs and obviously we both saw each other but i quickly looked down at my chocolate and pretended not to see him.haha.i'm hopeless.
after training,i walked alone,enjoying the night,thinking that he must have gone for dinner w his friends.when i reached the overhead bridge,i looked over and saw him.he saw me at the bus stop and approached me.haas.ladyluck was smiling at me.the bus didnt came and it was like 20 mins of waiting and chatting?haha.he was damn talkative,kept asking questions.he mentioned some weird stuffs also.like telling me tt guy at the bus stop is handsome and asking me to consider..tt sort of stuffs.wat's he trying to do.he did as badly as me in the mye.haas.he was happy tt he found someone w results as lousy as his.evil pig.he told me to rest well and drink red bull for sports carnival.haas.(: he bought a snickers bar and he offered me but i rejected his offer and said it has already melted and went out of shape.then he tried to squeeze it back to the original shape.dumbo.haha.justina,keli and huili appeared suddenly and was like giggling away.oh man.justina still said "shine shine" before she boarded the bus.duper awkward.was talking about my sleeping habits and he said i'm pig.then i rebutted him and say,"ni cai shi zhu".'suan' him for a few times and he was like 'dots...',nothing to say.haha.he jutted my shoulders for twice when i was laughing at him and he was like 'how could you say tt of me..'haas.his way of expressing himself and carrying himself is duper cute lo.this is jus a rough outline of what had happened.if not i can nvr finish this entry.haha.anyone who want to know the detailed story can approach me.haas.
even though he made my day,studies must not be neglected still.he also told me to study hard.haha.
yesterday was sports carnival.the arrangement was damn sucky.straight after flag rising they told the 100m singles girls to get ready.didnt have time to warm-up and get prepared for it.my pushing off was a disaster.what's more was that i didnt hear the damn whistle going off.lousy run.the other event sucked as well.the track was wet.the feeling of not being able to get a grip on the ground while running totally sucked.lynette is a very nice girl.gave me a very heart-warming hug after my disastrous run to comfort me.anyway she runs damn fast too.pretty,sports-inclined,smart and nice character.such a nice girl.the happiest event of the day was soccer getting in 2nd in the inter-cca relay!!!hoorays!!!we were actually 3rd,beind track and dragonboat.but the tracker threw thier baton and was disqualified.what a waste.soccer did fantastically well.no practise run no nothing,what's more was that we kept changing runners.one more step and we could be first.aloysious ran and sped up.almost over-taking dragonboat.whatever it is, it was still a great effort put in by priscilla,maria,me,sylvia,oliver,fred,tsung wei and aloysious.bravo!!not forgetting those tt were cheering and praying hard for us at the spectators stand.thanks everyone.stupid pig pon sports carnival.roars.it's good though,tt he didnt see me running so badly.(: and dragon house emerged as the champs this year!!with so many good runners tt top the school in this house.haha.we used to be the last.but tt's all in the past.hees.
SOCCER ROCKS!!(:
are we meant to be?

2006-07-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

attention to all readers!!!!
today is a damn happening day for me..haha..but i'll have to wake up for sports day in less than 5 hours time so i'll jus let u all know tt there'll be happening news coming right up!!stay tuned!!
nights.
light of my life seems to be shining.(:

2006-07-03T11:43:00.000+08:00

good morning!so,i've jus woke up and finished the "i'm tagged!" stuff.since i'm here,shall leave an entry.(:
i cant believe tt i've actually been staying in and have not even stepped out of the hous for the past 2 days!! tv-marathon? after tuition i was like lying 10 hours on the sofa,no wonder my back hurts.i THOUGHT i was going to study my geo,hope it's not too late to start after this post.
and yes,tuition yesterday was a turmoil.went through the mid-yr ppr and tutor predict tt i would get 20% or 30% if i'm lucky.see how bad things turned out to be?i could sense tt he's losing hope in me.would he jus give up on me someday?
*ROARS*emo emo go away.time for happy stuffs.big bro told me to do some IQ stuffs yesterday.there's 10 puzzle.no instructions,no nothing.u would jus have to click,drag and type to solve the puzzles.so i solved 8 of it in 2hrs and 10 mins time.the last 2 were wiping out my brain cells.argh! and i gave up.haha.still,big bro seems quite impressed.he thought tt i wouldnt be able to solve most of it.and i proved him wrong.(: will i get the chance to prove my tutor wrong too?
roars.roars.roars.roars.roars.roars.?ay lliw tnih a em pord

2006-07-03T11:04:00.000+08:00

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 persons to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.I have been tagged!~~~~~
Favourites
Favourite Colour: orange and green.yellow perhaps.as long as it's bright.
Favourite Food: my mum's penang laksa and curry chicken.choc cookies and ramen.
Favourite Song: the list wont stop once i start,so i shant trouble myself.anyway favourites change as time passes too isnt it?
Favourite Movie: ....dunno.
Favourite Sport: soccer,volleyball,badminton,table-tennis,tennis.(:
Favourite Day of the Week: monday!u get to see all ur friends in sch after the weekends!!isnt it great?
Favourite Season: singapore only has summer..well..but if there is,i would prefer spring,the season which brings life.
Favourite Ice Cream: tt'll have to be ben and jerry's.slurps.choc-mint makes me drool.
Currents
Current Mood: bored. anxious.gonna study geo after this.
Current taste: tasteless.
Current Clothes: maroon queen kong shirt and blue flowery pants.
Current Desktop: ermms..a view of the sea?
Current Toenail Colour: e color tt i'm born w?
Curent Time: 1118 am
Current Surroundings: bro's room,empty house,all have gone out!roars!
Current Annoyances: aching back.must be tt i've slept too long.haas.
Current Thoughts: what to eat later on,study geo later and seeing sunshine in 19hrs time!!
First
First Best Friend: fiona leong ka yan.(:
First Crush: sec 1..it was a nightmare,a terrible choice.
First Movie: i think i'm getting senile.
First Lie: "it's not me!"
First Music: lullabies?
Lasts
Last Cigarette: N-O,NO!NEVER!
Last Drink: plain water?
Last Car Ride: the one after blue-star?222.and i haven left the house for like e entire sat and sun?i'm rotting!!
Last Crush: is current!! u r my sunshine,my only sunshine.....hees.
Last Movie: scary movie 4 waste of money.dun watch it ppl!!
Last Phone Call: ermms...omg!!i cant recall!!!
Last CD played: months ago.does mp3 count?
Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: no. is tt possible?
Have you ever broken the law: yea. minor ones.
Have you ever been arrested: would i still be here if i were?
Have you ever skinny-dipped: pardon?
Have you ever been on TV: dunno.maybe yes,maybe no.
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: no.for what?
5 things you are wearing: shirt,pants,pin,rubberband..i dont doll myself up when i'm at home..so..no no.5.haas.
4 things you done today: open my eyes,thought of him,go toilet and using com..
3 things you can hear right now: cars and buses moving,sound from the fan and keyboard(coz i'm typing)
1 thing you do when you are bored: blend in w my best'est pal at home...my SOFA!!i'm near to becoming part of it!!hoorays!!
5 people? oh man.i aint so bad to tag others and make them suffer.hees.so no names.(:

2006-07-01T16:39:00.000+08:00

outing w grac'ians'03 yesterday was a treat.i love meeting up w them.eat,gossip,chill and jus get together.aint i lucky to have such a great group of friends.what's more is tt i have two of such,not forgetting TMG.so our day went as such:
we arranged to meet at 1030 at sommerset for kbox.and i left home at 1015.i was supposed to meeet up w catherine at aljunied to pass her my mp3 at 1010 but i reached at 1035.haha.my bad and never-changing lateness.forgive me,plz?hees.met up w yong chao,our mr joker and hoorays!!bedok'ians arrived earlier than pasir ris'ians.didi was the culprit.poor ben had to wait for her.haha..i knew it.since sec-sch me and didi had always been late.haha.two leopards nvr changes thier spots.geez.but dun stereotype girls to be always the late-comers ok.yongchao reached no earlier than me.at most 5mins ok.so ya,back to story-went for k-lunch(11 to 2).sang and screamed our hearts out.tt's one good point abt k-box.u can scream like its nobody's business.haha.stupid ben kept singing songs backwards it was duper irritating.haha.realized tt yong chao is very alike to luo zhi xiang.the way he present himself and the way he talks.mini-luo zhi xiang.dun deny yea?haas.found out tt didi is actually duper swakoo.the songs she listens to are those long forgotten ones.plz update urself will ya?haha.more k-box next time k guys?
after kbox we bought tix for scary movie 4.took neo-prints and it turned out quite nice.everything is nice as long as the right ppl are with u,agreeable?haha.then the guys ate BK and lucky ben kana zhong ji mi ma.the no. i set was 31.random.and he swallowed a packet of chilli sauce.think he was quite traumatized after tt coz he kept wanting to be the no. setter.and ya,i got to know abt the whole 'jinx' thingy.the one when 2 person say the same thing at the same time,and both will make their wish and at the count of 3,say one of 'tic,tac or toe'.if both says the same one again,ur wish will come true.cant imagine tt out of the 9 times i got 'jinxed',none of it allowed my wish to come true.): seems like its fated tt i'll fail my mye badly.sobbs.
sorry readers,this entry will be kinda long coz i have hell lotsa stuffs to write abt.hees.bear w me k?yep.so the stupid scary movie was kinda waste of money.the most funny part was when the ju-on boy spoke w the lead actress using words like"sushi,sushimi,subaru,misubitshi,tempura..",trying to fake off as japanese conversation.damn lame.after tt we went to starbucks and sat there waiting for shu juan,without ordering anything.haha.cheapo.told them e 'da zui yu' joke and they were damn amused by it.haha.yong chao said the reason y i got 'jinxed' so many time was tt i talked a lot.did i?hmm..
brought them to the place where there's cheap jap food but the shop was not open.): after a long long time of discussion,we finally found ourselves sitting inside swensens enjoying our dinner.it's ok to pamper ourselves w good food once in awhile yea?
after tt i brought them to see blue stars.hees.only those tt have a placing in my heart will get me to bring them to see blue star ok..not everyone has the chance.ben was very touched and agitated when he opened his eyes.wow.cool.subsequently it was yong chao ,shu juan and van.shu juan said it'ld have been even greater if it was her guy who brought her to see blue star.but yong chao said its nice enough to have close friends bringing u there and enjoying the night together.well-said!!(: they said it looked even nicer without their specs on coz it'll look more blur and real.perfect eyesight cant enjoy tt.): next time i shant mention if i'm bringing anyone to blue star,coz too much anticipation kills all the surprise tt's in stall.well,lesson learnt.
chatted and saw catherine.hees.and ya,grac'ians '03 made my day and life.bought a small notebook today.it shall be our logbook,collecting all our thoughts and feelings during each outing.wouldnt it be such a magical feeling to read back abt all these tt we've been through together in 10 or 20 or even 50 years time?cant wait to see them in 2 weeks time during our mahjong session.hees.i love u guys!!

2006-06-30T09:14:00.000+08:00

*sigggghhhhs* chinese ppr yesterday was a bomb.it really blasted me off.ppr1 was bad,and ppr2 was worse.like wat was mentioned in the xiao shou "wo xin zhong bu man le hui cheng".really regret taking this combi.time-consuimg and kinda useless.i'm such a fool.i could forgive myself for not performing in maths and econs.but there's jus this sense of guilt when i messed up my chinese.perhaps i underestimated the difficulty of the ppr,or i overestimated myself.u cant imagine what shit i wrote for compo and how many blanks i left.):
whatever it is,this mid-yrs served its purpose as my awakening bell.if not,promos would become retain"tion exams or it'll be sending me off to my next destination,poly.
well well well,it's all over.'wang shi bu kan hui shou'.shall start disciplining myself once sch re-opens.no more skipping of lectures,less/no sleeping during tutorials/lecture,and pay more attention.
going out with my grac'ians budds later on.buzzing off~
waitingformyfariytaletocometolive

2006-06-27T18:53:00.000+08:00

back from econs.disastrous.i actually left almost half of the ppr blank and happily thought tt e qns i answered was spot-on,but only to find out tt i was living in my own world.my answers were out of point!!!!wat the shit is all these?! i need more discipline and practice,desperately.i wan to set a good example,as a captain,to the rest of my team,and show tt it's totally possible to do well in both soccer and studies.problem is,how long will i take to become that role model?should someone else take my place instead?
had a bad sleep last night.tossing and turning,with all the concepts and econs stuffs going on and on and on in my head.woke up at god dammit 0530 and rushed to sch then realised tt econs starts at 1200,not 0800!!kill me plz,somebody.i'm getting real blur these days,in addition to sabotage by mr lin zong lin.tt day i actually shampoo'ed my head and forgot to soap myself and i thought i was done w bathing so i started to dress up,and it suddenly dawn on me tt i've not soap my body yet,so i rewind and ya,finished up whatever i left out.is this wat they call stress?perhaps.haha.
looking on the brighter side of life,joy and laughters made up my day when i'm w TMG.even only for tt short period of time,it counts.((: and i saw sunshine,with his specs on in the lecture hall.he's short-sighted?i didnt know.haha.i tot he missed e bus today when i didnt saw him,but found out tt i was the dumb one,going to sch so early dunno for wat.
and yep,had a nice chat w this good good frend of mine,its been long since e last time we did so.he always manage to cheer me what and makes me feel at ease to show him even the most vulnerable side of me.even when i dont show or mention anything,he seems to be able to read my mind;and the degree of his understanding towards me really amazes me whenever he hit spot-on on my "xin shi". it's rare to be able to find a friend of such,and i've found mine.(: i hope nothing ever changes the way we r now.((:
wo de tian kong jin tian you dian hui.when will sunshine come and brighten it up? (:

2006-06-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

aloha!! i'm back to blog..(:
shag is e word.jus finished doing my maths,been sitting at my specialised untidy table since 11am this morning till 11 smth jus now..i nvr apply super glue on my butt ok..jus had to force myself to do maths..which i'll be facing in a few hours time from now..): tuition had been nightmares for me..tutor was scolding like as if i'm born for the sake of letting him scold..but he did speak softly everytime after he scolded me,coz he's guilty!! he even told me tt he understand tt i dun like maths and said tt there's no other way out except suffer for the next one year plus..he does sound nice at times..sometimes tt is..
cant believe tt i spent friday night at my frend's house till sat night when exams had already started..i'm badly in need of discipline..)): however,i managed to get all the songs i wanted from her com,except some which i forgot to load into my mp3..)): finally i'm listening to more up-to-date songs and not those 'lao kok kok' de songs which drives me nuts..((:
jus to let u all noe a secret....................................................................................................
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I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!
ok..tt was totally random..nights!! wish myself and everyone else all the best for tml's maths ppr!! (:
hope to see sunshine...(:

2006-06-22T14:27:00.000+08:00

omg..i actually slept for 14hrs!!! no doubt tt i'm gonna flunk my mid-yrs like hell..
anyway..saw sunshine yesterday!!! it's kinda freaky as it seems when there's these few times when i'm thinking of whether he'ld appear,he'll jus pop out right in front of me..haha..to start of with,i was studying and day-dreaming,then i saw his group of frends,and it came across me tt would he be in sch too? as my thoughts drifted and i looked up..there he was!!! w his ugly and eye-catching bag..haha..then i went to i-space to study,weather very hot u know...hees.
after awhile,he still didnt come in and priscilla was beginning to turn into an iceberg,in addition to her flu.therefore,we came out to the seashell area to continue drilling our books.thanks to my active bladder..haha..i went to the ladies and as i walked past,i was thinking would it be so coincidental tt he'll be in e gents.to my horror,he was in there!!fiddling w his hair.yep, he saw me looking in,i'm not 'se ah mah' ok...i hurried in and hurried out..haha..both of us came out at the same time and here it goes:
me n him,"hello."
him,"kicking soccer?"
me,"nope"
him,"came to study?"
me,"yep"
him,"in i-space?"
me,"ya,but i jus came out,i'm studying there now(points to e place i'm sitting)"
him,"orh."
me n him,"......" and walked off in different direction. (: (: (:
finally,i'm convinced tt after one month of holidays,he still rmbs me!
my eyes arent on him everytime we talk,is it kinda rude? hope it's not..
oh..had dinner w pris and saw him playing his bball while walking out.idiot.wore the yellow singlet,aa sia.and he looked at the vball girls playing vball!! ): ): ):
gonna go have my revenge on the books and notes,drill them real hard and exhaust them..hahaha..tune in for more happening news..(:

2006-06-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

lazy worm are crawling all over me.here i am,using the com instead of mugging hard w the exams smacked right onto my face in 2 days time.kill me somebody,plz.
chinese revision was quite productive today.finally i feel like i'm absorbing something after these few days.
esther and crayon were sick and fly aeroplane(fang fei ji)..leaving poor me and priscilla alone..haha..exaMs nearing..dun fall sick ok?takkaires everybody.
priscilla told me abt her super hilarious indian teacher in her sec sch and then she got so excited..high blood sia..pris imitated the way her indian teacher talked and we were laughing so loudly..opps..:X
my friend said,"seems lyk ur clique(TMG) rocks,lyk so fun" and she said my baby pillow smells like heaven,if there's a perfume of such smell,she'll be the first to buy..haha..so funny..*shy sia*
practised some goal kicks,drop kicks,stunts and juggling w priscilla today..loving soccer more and more.getting not used to the mud,haven been diving into mud pools for some time le..
bless me everyone.prays hard tt stupid kueek would give the nod in letting soccer girls be official in nyjc.hope to accomplish something as the 2006 soccer captain before stepping down.petition awaits should he gives a shake.
shall end here.(:

2006-06-17T19:04:00.000+08:00

*ahh choo*
poor me,suffering from flu now.jus returned from bedok reservoir,went to support nyjc dragonboat.not as exciting and nerve-wrecking as i expected it to be.could see the effort put in though.kudos to ny dragonboaters.learnt a lesson-must bring bino there next time,if not will only see the hair of the ppl due to the distance.-__- decided to study in bedok library after next mon to save time on travelling and step up productivity. something seems to be weighing on my heart,but i jus couldnt figure out wat it is. argh. btw, saw jj at reservoir today..mx!! y u nvr go?! he's looking out for u...haha..hope to hear good news from u soon...(:

2006-06-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

to those who are reading this: u r one of the first few honourables to witness my first entry in this new blog of mine...created by crayon...thanks alot girl...and today is the day when fairytale became reality for our dear minxuan...OMG!!!!! congrats her everyone!!!!!! (: keep up the good work!! gtg liaoz..bro wanna use com liaoz..will update again soon..(: